Wednesday, September 08, 2010

it's really happening..

hello, so I decided I was going to start blogging here again. The other thing was giving me technical difficulties so I'll be typing here for now until I figure it out!

soo, AHHH! it's really happening. like really...reeallly. like omg! haha. sometimes i cant really wrap my head around it. thinking to myself..wtf am i doing?! the best analogy I can come up with is that my life was like a puzzle..neatly pieced together hanging in a pretty frame. then I got tired of looking at it and decide to throw it on the ground and now all the puzzle pieces are scattered all over the floor! haha. that is seriously how I felt when I first accepted the job, but slowly I have been able to piece things together & make a plan...so a lot of the anxiety has simmered down..and it's more bittersweet than anything. Ailene told me, "it's ok Maricel..the puzzle in the frame was just a kiddie puzzle with like 6 pieces...time for you to put together an adult puzzle." LOL.

I'm excited but I also feel sad for a lot of reasons. Number one being that I'll miss all my family and close friends. The rest of San Diego though, I can care less...and I can't wait to get away from you people! lol. Been trying to spend a lot of quality time with everyone (been mostly my family lately) and seems like the more time I spend..the more sad I feel knowing I'm leaving them. Like I hope Baby G wont forget me..I hope Inang will be fine..but ANYWAYS! I plan on going home frequently so I try not to worry about it. As for you my friends, I know we'll keep in touch. Everyone set up your skype accounts!:) & everyone start blogging again!

We are also in the active process of moving out of the place Ive called home for 26 years. The new place is pretty nice and I'm actually bummed I dont get to live there at all. I got downgraded to the smallest room in the house..:( The downstairs of my house is almost empty and they are going to start moving in the bedrooms this weekend. Siiiigh* My room is halfway packed..most of my things in boxes. Got rid of 2 large boxes of clothes and belongings I don't use/need (Amazing how easy junk/old clothes accumulate!). Soo yup, going to hawaii with a box of clothes! Alriiight! lol.

On the brighter side of things, I am so very excited! Happy Jamie is coming...Daisy is in the process of looking for a job..and my sisters friend, Amber is going to join along. It makes all the difference knowing you wont be alone! While I am there, I plan on visiting all the islands of Hawaii...and my new bucketlist of destinations while Im there include: Australia, New Zealand, and Bali or somewhere in Asia. I'm excited to practice "Aloha Nursing," lol...and just experience nursing in another environment with different people (although I do hate being the "new" girl at first). I'm excited to meet new people and make new friends..and excited to just have a richer life. Move out & grow up..learn to cook and do laundry, lol. Decorate our new place! and entertain our many visitors while we are there..haha!

So yes, definitely excited...jus gotta get over the sadness of leaving everything behind. T-18days, ready..set.GO!


1 comment:

mie. said...

putting on the "big girls pants" now. hahaa.