the life of a nurse

Hey everyone, haven't really talked to anyone except for probably Jamie. Haha, but I've jusst been working!! what's new??

WORK: I am now a functioning RN..by myself, making my own clinical decisions! I have to say that everyday I learn more & more, but I definitely see myself in a much "bigger" place I guess. Scripps is great starter I would have to say. Working with the very underprivileged of our community reminds me to be humble everyday. The homeless/aliens/crazy people/spanish speaking only/regular people (haha) makes every case a little different & complicated but I guess I like it. I can almost speak fluent spanish, hah. Anyways, back to my point...I eventually see myself at a bigger hospital, doing something craazy like doing everything i can to save the life of a dying person(of course with experience), and 12 hour shifts! haha. These 8hours are killin me. I practically live at the hospital, I am more alive there than when I get home. When I go out, its mostly with coworkers...The upside is that I get to make wonderfulllllll relationships with my patients cuz I see their asses everyday!! haha. It feels good. After having these 5 particular patients all week, today I discharged 2 of them...& felt sad that they were leaving!!! & then I had another one real close to dying of metastatic cancer-- I sat with her during lunch today and fed her popsicles.......aww..I'm gonna miss her too. She's going to hospice tomorrow. Soo even if I'm there 24/7, I guess I dont mind for now. The weekends dont seem that fun anymore anyways!!! haha. first REAL RN paycheck tomorrow, exciiited!

SOCIAL LIFE: not applicable. haha, jk. I've been going out with my coworkers a lot...having little get togethers, a pool party, and eating out/drinking. Other than that, I chill with my sisters at night. Been going out a lot with Marty & Sandy & that posse...+ random chillin with Philbert..then our random happy hours haha.

SCHOOL: not applicable, though I wish it were! I'm really gonna missss school :( probably the one thing in life I was good at haha.

LOVE: Seems like everyone is in loove or something. As far as my "love" affair with mr.808 goes.... ummmmm....its alive but I guess I dont really believe if that makes any sense. I guess its bad that I still talk to him, yet the whole time doubt in my mind that it will reaally work out. If circumstances were different (ie he lived here!) then I think of course it would be soo different, but just the fact he literally lives an ocean away...that it would very well cost me 1000buckss+ just to see him...that we DONT have the same phone company so I cant mobile2mobile with him, but use my anytime minutes....that i use all my texts on him...that we live in different TiME zones...that I work in the day & he works at night..& i could EASILY get away with cheating on him (haha had to throw that one in lol)............I guess all that makes a difference. a HUUUGE difference actually! He has a verrry charming personality & we had grrrrrrreat chemistry at hawaii...but sometimes I think I should have left it at hawaii. Cuz now I'm getting called 'baby' by someone I cant see but only talk to, getting Looove CDs in the mail, & being asked to falll asleep on the phone (@ these times Im like omg, my minutes!! hahaha) then secretly 'accidently' hanging up on him when he dozes off. but I DOOO LIIKE HIM!! dont get me wrong, but given the situation... the cons>pros. But whatever happens, happens....if anything I got a gooood friend in hawaii to show us around if we ever go! haha...but for now a pretend boyfriend. muahaha.

FITNESS: soooooo NOT APPLICABLE!!!!!!!! changing that NEXT week. i'm getting hideous under those scrubs, hahahaa.

so that's life for me. until neexxxxxt time!!