haven't been on here for a while.
since i dont talk to many people during the week, I think I'll start writing in here again.
does anyone still read this?????????
if so, i'll be back. haha. im breaking out with pimples. hasnt happened in a long time, gross.
Monday, November 19, 2007
Monday, September 10, 2007
time's up.....
I've been dreading the day I would have to say goodbye to her. It always seemed so far away, but now that it's closer than ever...it's so sad! I've never cherished moments more with her. Everytime she talks, I can see the sadness in her eyes that she is leaving...then I stop myself from crying because I know it's probably the best thing for her. Everybody here at home has their own life, sometimes too busy for our own good. I just can't imagine coming home to an empty kitchen...no tfc playing 24/7, no1 to force me to drive them around, no1 to talk to when no1 else is home..and I know she's not dying or anything, but I'm seriously going to misss her sooooo much. I have never seen anybody show as much love and kindness as she has shown to all of us. K, i'm gonna go to sleep now. I'm making myself saaaad:(!!!!!!!
Thursday, August 23, 2007
the life of a nurse
Hey everyone, haven't really talked to anyone except for probably Jamie. Haha, but I've jusst been working!! what's new??
WORK: I am now a functioning RN..by myself, making my own clinical decisions! I have to say that everyday I learn more & more, but I definitely see myself in a much "bigger" place I guess. Scripps is great starter I would have to say. Working with the very underprivileged of our community reminds me to be humble everyday. The homeless/aliens/crazy people/spanish speaking only/regular people (haha) makes every case a little different & complicated but I guess I like it. I can almost speak fluent spanish, hah. Anyways, back to my point...I eventually see myself at a bigger hospital, doing something craazy like doing everything i can to save the life of a dying person(of course with experience), and 12 hour shifts! haha. These 8hours are killin me. I practically live at the hospital, I am more alive there than when I get home. When I go out, its mostly with coworkers...The upside is that I get to make wonderfulllllll relationships with my patients cuz I see their asses everyday!! haha. It feels good. After having these 5 particular patients all week, today I discharged 2 of them...& felt sad that they were leaving!!! & then I had another one real close to dying of metastatic cancer-- I sat with her during lunch today and fed her popsicles.......aww..I'm gonna miss her too. She's going to hospice tomorrow. Soo even if I'm there 24/7, I guess I dont mind for now. The weekends dont seem that fun anymore anyways!!! haha. first REAL RN paycheck tomorrow, exciiited!
SOCIAL LIFE: not applicable. haha, jk. I've been going out with my coworkers a lot...having little get togethers, a pool party, and eating out/drinking. Other than that, I chill with my sisters at night. Been going out a lot with Marty & Sandy & that posse...+ random chillin with Philbert..then our random happy hours haha.
SCHOOL: not applicable, though I wish it were! I'm really gonna missss school :( probably the one thing in life I was good at haha.
LOVE: Seems like everyone is in loove or something. As far as my "love" affair with mr.808 goes.... ummmmm....its alive but I guess I dont really believe if that makes any sense. I guess its bad that I still talk to him, yet the whole time doubt in my mind that it will reaally work out. If circumstances were different (ie he lived here!) then I think of course it would be soo different, but just the fact he literally lives an ocean away...that it would very well cost me 1000buckss+ just to see him...that we DONT have the same phone company so I cant mobile2mobile with him, but use my anytime minutes....that i use all my texts on him...that we live in different TiME zones...that I work in the day & he works at night..& i could EASILY get away with cheating on him (haha had to throw that one in lol)............I guess all that makes a difference. a HUUUGE difference actually! He has a verrry charming personality & we had grrrrrrreat chemistry at hawaii...but sometimes I think I should have left it at hawaii. Cuz now I'm getting called 'baby' by someone I cant see but only talk to, getting Looove CDs in the mail, & being asked to falll asleep on the phone (@ these times Im like omg, my minutes!! hahaha) then secretly 'accidently' hanging up on him when he dozes off. but I DOOO LIIKE HIM!! dont get me wrong, but given the situation... the cons>pros. But whatever happens, happens....if anything I got a gooood friend in hawaii to show us around if we ever go! haha...but for now a pretend boyfriend. muahaha.
FITNESS: soooooo NOT APPLICABLE!!!!!!!! changing that NEXT week. i'm getting hideous under those scrubs, hahahaa.
so that's life for me. until neexxxxxt time!!
WORK: I am now a functioning RN..by myself, making my own clinical decisions! I have to say that everyday I learn more & more, but I definitely see myself in a much "bigger" place I guess. Scripps is great starter I would have to say. Working with the very underprivileged of our community reminds me to be humble everyday. The homeless/aliens/crazy people/spanish speaking only/regular people (haha) makes every case a little different & complicated but I guess I like it. I can almost speak fluent spanish, hah. Anyways, back to my point...I eventually see myself at a bigger hospital, doing something craazy like doing everything i can to save the life of a dying person(of course with experience), and 12 hour shifts! haha. These 8hours are killin me. I practically live at the hospital, I am more alive there than when I get home. When I go out, its mostly with coworkers...The upside is that I get to make wonderfulllllll relationships with my patients cuz I see their asses everyday!! haha. It feels good. After having these 5 particular patients all week, today I discharged 2 of them...& felt sad that they were leaving!!! & then I had another one real close to dying of metastatic cancer-- I sat with her during lunch today and fed her popsicles.......aww..I'm gonna miss her too. She's going to hospice tomorrow. Soo even if I'm there 24/7, I guess I dont mind for now. The weekends dont seem that fun anymore anyways!!! haha. first REAL RN paycheck tomorrow, exciiited!
SOCIAL LIFE: not applicable. haha, jk. I've been going out with my coworkers a lot...having little get togethers, a pool party, and eating out/drinking. Other than that, I chill with my sisters at night. Been going out a lot with Marty & Sandy & that posse...+ random chillin with Philbert..then our random happy hours haha.
SCHOOL: not applicable, though I wish it were! I'm really gonna missss school :( probably the one thing in life I was good at haha.
LOVE: Seems like everyone is in loove or something. As far as my "love" affair with mr.808 goes.... ummmmm....its alive but I guess I dont really believe if that makes any sense. I guess its bad that I still talk to him, yet the whole time doubt in my mind that it will reaally work out. If circumstances were different (ie he lived here!) then I think of course it would be soo different, but just the fact he literally lives an ocean away...that it would very well cost me 1000buckss+ just to see him...that we DONT have the same phone company so I cant mobile2mobile with him, but use my anytime minutes....that i use all my texts on him...that we live in different TiME zones...that I work in the day & he works at night..& i could EASILY get away with cheating on him (haha had to throw that one in lol)............I guess all that makes a difference. a HUUUGE difference actually! He has a verrry charming personality & we had grrrrrrreat chemistry at hawaii...but sometimes I think I should have left it at hawaii. Cuz now I'm getting called 'baby' by someone I cant see but only talk to, getting Looove CDs in the mail, & being asked to falll asleep on the phone (@ these times Im like omg, my minutes!! hahaha) then secretly 'accidently' hanging up on him when he dozes off. but I DOOO LIIKE HIM!! dont get me wrong, but given the situation... the cons>pros. But whatever happens, happens....if anything I got a gooood friend in hawaii to show us around if we ever go! haha...but for now a pretend boyfriend. muahaha.
FITNESS: soooooo NOT APPLICABLE!!!!!!!! changing that NEXT week. i'm getting hideous under those scrubs, hahahaa.
so that's life for me. until neexxxxxt time!!
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