The final days

So it's been real first pregnancy!  40 weeks and 3 days today! Could be any day now, but if she doesn't come...I am scheduled for an induction on December 3!

So what a whirlwind everything has been this year. Feels like I just got married...and literally right after pregnant! I remember November seemed so far away...but now the baby might even be coming in December! These last few months of pregnancy were crazy with us finding out our landlord was selling our house. Somehow we end up in the crazy real estate market game here. We were literally a week away from closing escrow on our first home...when the house floods! We took that as a big, big sign that it just wasn't right...so we didn't go through with it! And I'm so happy with our decision. Everything happens for a reason! 

So we had to switch from a buying mindset back to renting! Didn't have much time to find a place before we had to get out of this house. Definitely hard to rent so last minute, especially having a dog, and such a tight time frame. After an exhausting search looking for a rental that was right for us..we actually found something we liked! Decent location, living space, storage, and dog-friendly....hallelujah! I was getting desperate for just a place to live that I was willing to settle for living in a little box :/ as long as I had a roof over my head.

Anyways, just reflecting on the last nine months...or actually this year in general..and all that has lead up to where I am today. I just feel incredibly grateful that somehow in the end, God always has the most perfect timing..& things always fall into place accordingly. I could have never planned this for/ or guessed this life for myself...but I'm happy! Finally feeling ready for our next chapter as parents... after all the craziness and challenges and uncertainty....here we goo! Thank you Lord!

A Baby is Cummings!: At 19 Weeks

Omg. The heat. I can barely handle! The old Hawaii homes don't have any protection against the sun, so my house pretty much reaches "sauna" status at the peak hours of the day--especially with no winds and high humidity! We just got a new air conditioner which I have to make Mike set up asap. Being hot and pregnant ain't the business!

But hey! I'm almost halfway done--20 weeks next week! It just went so fast! I feel like I spent a lot of it maybe in denial honestly, lol! Having to process that I just got married & within a few weeks, I was already learning that I was going to be a Mom too! At my first ultrasound, when the tech squeezed the warm gel on my belly..I almost thought maybe there really wasn't a baby in there, haha! But she's there!! & I'm just happy that she's healthy! It will be big adjustments for Mike and I, but I also know she will bring us probably one of the greatest joys in life...so bring it on! ;)

I finally had to buy some maternity clothes..mostly those ugly pants/shorts connected to a stretchy band, lol. My stomach is getting bigger every week and I feel little "popcorn" taps in my belly from time to time. Lately, I've had Filipino food cravings. We made Chicken Tinola the other night..and tonight we had Adobo...mmm! But besides that, I can't get enough of fresh fruits...& sandwiches (which I try not to eat a lot of cuz the deli meats). I feel mostly normal now which is great...finally have energy to start exercising again. My doctor told me to watch my weight gain..so I got kind of paranoid. I try to walk on my days off and do this prenatal barre workout which actually burns, lol! & that's pretty much my life in a nutshell! We're planning to go back to Sd in Mid-September...I think maybe we would have a baby shower then...just don't know how that would work exactly with gifts and everything. Maybe we'll just have to move there then, HAH!

Ok, well time to sleep for another day at work tomorrow :/ just thought I'd update you guys! Until next time! 

This was @17 weeks...conscious about my "fat not pregnant" looking body, haha

Mike is giving up his beloved Tacoma..& got himself a daddy car-- a used 2007 4Runner...I like it! He also passed his P.E. Exam, proud of him!

This was yesterday at 19 weeks. All HOT in my house!!

Stay cool everybody!!!

Thirty

So I'm 30 now!  So far I have been sick twice and since I have been back to Hawaii, have had doctors appointments, labs drawn, and an MRI of my head. Geez!!  Anyways, I think I stopped having my period around Dianne's wedding (2yrs ago) and only now finding out WHY!  I have a microadenoma on my pituitary gland that makes my body produce high prolactin levels.  So, my body basically thinks its breastfeeding....for two plus years. Dammit!  Good thing is I finally know what is wrong, hallelujah! I was prescribed medicine and took my first dose yesterday.  It made me feel nauseated and my stomach ached...but it's only twice a week so we'll see how it goes.

On top of that, the census in the ICU has been extremely looww. Half of my shifts were cancelled this pay period...so I am semi freaked out. Haha.  I have a lot of wedding expenses coming up in the next 2 months and really can't afford not to work.  So I've been fixing up my resume and will probably try NEED to pick up a part time job somewhere....anywhere??  Haha.  I literally make every effort to not spend money lately.  My days consist of working out, eating at home, taking my dog to the park, and watching redbox or any movies I can find on TBS.  Lol. I'll survive. I always say this, but can't wait to be done saving my money for a wedding, hahah! We've been getting back a lot of RSVPs....and so far only ONE "regretfully declines"...we'll see how it looks when we get closer to the date.

I am also a regular day shift nurse now...after 5+ years of being a vampire! I was telling my sisters my body surprisingly adapted very quickly. I wake up early now and sleep at night like a normal person...I have more energy and rely a lot less on coffee (although sometimes I want it just to taste it, haha)...& generally just feel better.  Glad my circumstances (& Mike) pushed me to finally make the change.  

Anyways, that's all that is new with me...until next timeee!

The Wedding Planning Continues..

Wedding planning has been in full effect! Aside from the saving money part, I am pretty much just letting myself just enjoy everything. Definitely not a bride-zilla..or at least I don't think, haha! My favorite part is the creativity aspect...love making all these cool wedding projects/ DIY stuff! My least favorite part is paying for everything, haha! Haven't bought too much for myself...but it has also made me realize that I don't need it! The big splurges I do wanna make when I'm done (yes, already thinking about it haha) are:

1)  DSLR camera. Soo badly want to learn how to take photos and edit like a pro!

2) king size bed. Mike's big ass makes a queen seem so small!

3) iphone 6plus. Do I need it? Noooo. Haha.

Anyways, I think I did the hardest part of planning which was hiring all my vendors. I just booked my flowers over the weekend, which was pretty much my last big vendor to book! I also recently hired a day-of-coordinator and booked a rehearsal dinner location (which u guys are all invited to the night before!). We most likely will just go to another island for a "mini-moon" after the wedding..then maybe head to Bali in the summer for a reeal one! Yay! Most my family already has their airfare booked.. I'm most excited to have everyone here at the same time!! Eeeee!

Ahh, so now to relax and focus on ummm..losing weight!! Yess! I was losing weight for a little bit but totally lost all discipline after trying on wedding dresses..haha! Drinking has really negative effects on my progress..but I can't help it! Haha! So, after my little trip to seattle/Vancouver/SD...I promise to try my best to be disciplined with both diet and exercise until the big day! 😁😁

In other news, I am going to day shift! After 5 years of being a vampire, my body has been telling me in many ways that it is over it! Time to be normal again..no more insomnia and wasted days...and more good night's sleep And sunshine!! Besides the awful thought of an alarm clock going off before 6 AM, I am definitely looking forward to it!

Here are some things I been working on..

1) table #s-- Beach names from our hometowns..Kauai and San Diego..& our favorite beaches on Oahu!

First, I stained the wood...

Then used chalk paint for the names..

& will add a starfish for a more beachy look..

2) escort card display--mikes gonna build me a wooden frame for 10 bucks..suuper excited! It's gonna be very pinteresting!

3) sneak peak of my invites which I'll be sending out soon:) 

See you all in Sd this October..if you guys were gonna book anything, use this link for airfare discount or room block at the Hilton! It's our wedding website addy:

Www.mikeandmaricel.weddingwindow.com

Holy Guacamole

Aloha friends!!

I first want to apologize for all the nagging texts about what dress I should buy for my wedding.  What a decision!  I learned my lesson that that is one thing not to settle on!  I ended up buying a dress at David's Bridal that I didn't love but purchased because it was cheaper.  Well, I came home with the worst of the worst buyers remorse I ever did have! Sick to my stomach and dizzy cuz I knew I made the wrong decision and the receipt read "Final Sale."  Thank God they were able to just cancel my order!! So now I know which dress is "the one!".....and even if I didnt purchase it yet...I am saying YES to THAT DRESS!!!

Whew! Hard part is over!  I am wondering to myself how the hell I ended up planning this huge ass wedding!? I never imagined having a big wedding..but here I am with a 200-person guest list.  200 only because the minimum head count at the venue has to be 200.  200 people, good lord!!!  Apparently, no such thing as small wedding with local families.  So my goal now is to keep it simple..going to try to incorporate a lot of DIY to keep it cute, simple, and "me." Splurge on the things that are important to me--which for me would be photography/videography, flowers, and apparently my dress.  Good thing Mike is so low maintenance! Hahah.  His main concern is budgeting--that I won't spend too much on everything...which is good because I am my father's daughter!! ;) And lastly, never forget why I am doing all this in the first place.....because I'm getting married!! Biggest commitment of my life!!

I'm happy and excited though! Mike is not perfect...& neither am I.  But it works out great....Everything I lack, he probably has. He is anal, particular, and detail-oriented and I am soo not.  He is straightforward and I beat around the bush. He always wants to have a plan and I'm probably as spontaneous as it gets. I'm outgoing and he is such the homebody. True meaning of opposites attract!  He can handle my craziness, my flaws, my spontaneity..and accepts me truly as I am.  He has a huge heart, is more loyal than a dog, and has always been my biggest cheerleader in life! I think he will make a great father to our babies (if we're lucky enough one day)...and omg, i seriously feel like crying.  Writing that made me tear a little!! Hahah!!

But, it is good to remember that ...especially whenever I wonder how in the world I ended up in the middle of planning a big wedding when I never imagined this! Because it is a big deal....and so so happy to share this day with all our family and friends.  Totally worth it!!=)







 

The Engagement

May 10, 2014

I woke up in my underwear, slight headache, and sounds of laughter from my living room. Dexter and Justin were in town and we had a long night out of bar hopping.  Mike was texting me unusually often that night telling me to "make sure I drink water" and "don't drink too much." Didn't think much of it!  I came out and there was Gale and Dexter.  Mike came out of the bedroom too, and although I didn't know at the time, he was worried that they were going to hang out with us all day.  Eventually they left and Mike was already nudging me to get ready so we could have what we call "M&M adventure day."

"No, my head hurts. I need to take a nap for a little."  Barrier!

I ended up sleeping for an hour and woke up feeling much better.  Mike kept telling me he wanted to go up to this treehouse in Tantalus that we go to sometimes just to hang out.  Normally, I'm usually down for whatever but that day I was fixated on eating and going swimming!

"No, I'm hungry. Let's eat."
"Okay, we can eat and then go to the treehouse and play music," says Mike.
"No, I don't want to go the treehouse. I wanna swim."  Barrier!

So, we ate at Yummy's in Koko Marina.  It was a hot and beautiful day! Next on the agenda was to swim!! So we head towards the east side to find a place to swim.  Along the drive home, he kept pulling over to random secluded beaches along the way asking if I wanted to swim there.

"No, I don't wanna go to these beaches. Let's go Bellows!" Barrier!

So, we get to Bellow's and it's the most crowded ever!  I told Mike if he ever proposed to me, that I wanted it to be just us two.  So Mike tries to find the least crowded area, and ends up parking my Lexus on the side of a road.

We get to the beach and spend the day there. It was so awesome--the weather was great, the water refreshing! I thought nothing of this day because we go to the beach and do this all the time.  Except, this day he brought his guitar and he never does that! So, he went to the car to get his guitar and finds a parking ticket on my car. Barrier!

"Are you mad?" He must have asked me ten times, lol. I kept saying no, I was too relaxed.

So, he starts to play all these songs on his guitar including "All of Me- John Legend", "Rude-Magik", and lastly "Marry Me--Bruno Mars."  Yet, the whole time I have my head turned away watching a bridal party taking pictures on the beach. LOL, barrier!!

"Can you pay attention to me?" he asked, haha!!

Ooops! So I guess he couldn't propose that way.  It was getting late, the sun was going to go down soon, and I was getting cold.  I told Mike that I wanted to go.  I was looking off in the distance, sitting in my beach chair, when I turned to my right and see Mike down on one knee and small red box in hand.

The thoughts in my head consisted of "OMG! WTF! AHHHH! WHAAT?! how? Reeeeally? Is this really happening?!"  Obviously, last thing I ever expected to happen that day! He asked me to marry him, and of course I said "YES!"

We hugged a lot! Decided to celebrate by grabbing a six pack of blue moon (the moon was out during that day too) and sat in the back of my car at Sandy's.

It was perfect. It was so 'us.' It was in true Michael Cummings fashion, because he WOULD have all those barriers in trying to propose to me, haha! And as for my ring, I love it too!! I love it because he picked it himself (we never went ring shopping), and he did a good job! It's a round cut, classic solitaire, on a platinum band...and I still trip out when I look at my hand and see it on my finger, haha!!

So, I'm 29 and feel weird saying the word "fiance'" ..but I have one! I also feel weird that "I'm engaged" AHHH!!! But I have to get used to it, lol.

Future Mrs. Cummings In the house, lol!

Week 3...yup, still goin!

Day15/100: finally rented "Frozen" and Mike and I loved it. Actually, I loved it more...true love was found thru her sister! Aww, I miss my sisters!!!!

Day16/100: Spent all my unused gift cards today and got a purse, new undies, sunnies, & perfume! Merry Christmas to me!

Day 17/100: recently started watching "the Mindy Project"--did 1hr of free-weighted arm workouts while watching reruns of this show! Yes!

Day 18/100:  "National Sibling Day"..didn't have my sisters, but had Mike's--went out for dinner and dessert, yum!

Day19/100: teeth cleaned today! Love when my teeth are squeaky clean :D

Day20/100: waking up hungover after crazy night, and cracking up about such a funny/crazy night! How old are we again?!!

Day 21/100: Woke up after work, & Mike took me to eat Filipino food cuz i always talk about how I miss it. Haha, reminded me of my parents so I talked to them when I got home!:)

Week 2

(I'm surprised myself that I've kept up with this, lol!)

Day8/100: Charge nurse tonight, but a smooth shift! 

Day9/100: BWW wings with Erwin, Jackie, daisy, Jamie, & gale! Sd friends!

Day10/100: decided I wanted to be 10lbs lighter before I turn 30. Finished my 2nd day of workouts for april...hahaha!

Day11/100:  had the awesomest massage ever...def returning to this hawaiian aunty!

Day12/100:  rocked it with my CRRT/balloon pump pt tonite, yee!!

Day13/100:  found koi scrubs on sale for $12 pants and $9 tops. OMG. Steal!! First time buying scrubs in 5yrs!! Literally!!! Omg I'm so excited...I'm such a "scrub" in my faded ass scrubs from 2007! Yay!

Day14/100: our BBQ failed..but still got to enjoy a little, hah!

Week 1

100 days of happy (cont)

...been updating this throughout the week but didn't want to post everyday. Don't have to read it (&future posts) tho! Just think I would enjoy reading this a few yrs from now.

Day2/100: Koko kisses/cuddles in the morning!!<3

Day3/100:  When explaining to my patient about his upcoming open heart surgery, he looks up to me and says "You know I'll never ever forget you for the rest of my life. Thank you for helping me, I really needed someone like you right now." 

Day4/100:  I had an easy shift today, no traffic on the way home, & got home early enough to see Mike before he left for work! hooray!!

Day5/100: Didn't sleep well today, and around 5pm got a call that I was going to be on standby! I jumped out of bed and literally ran around the house cuz I was so happy!!!

Day6/100:  cleaned my house and yard finally! Got to chat with Papic, then grabbed lunch and ate it at the beach. Took the scenic route home, always the best.

 

Day7/100: made our own lei from the puakenikeni in our backyard..wore it at the beach & acted (and drank like) it was my birfday! 

 

  

Btw, happy quarter century to my lil sis Lynn Lynn. No, seriously, I thought I was still 25. Where did the time goo?!!!!

100 happy days

Saw this challenge called 100 happy days, where everyday you post something that made you happy. 

 

Haha, I guess I'm into this kind of stuff so I want to try it!!

Day 1/100:

Today, I went hiking with Gale (another one of our Sd friends) and when we got to the top of hike..the view was absolutely beautiful! Happy to spend my days off outdoors..

Afterwards, we ate dinner and got this picture in a text from Philbert!

that made me happy too! Miss you guys!! I'm also happy BWW opened in Sd!!! 

Yay!!! Happiness!! Hahah!!

Rainy days..

Lots of rainy days lately. No sunshine to play. Since when did Sd have more sunshine than hawaii?? Currently having a cup of coffee while watching mike do yard work=)

Work has picked up lately, no more standby shifts for me! Guess it's a good thing being that I don't think I've had a full paycheck in over 2 months. Been having lots of young 20 something to 40 year olds coming in our ICU super sick..so crazy. Definitely reminded always not to take our good health for granted. 

Aside from work, Mike is going to Japan for 2 weeks this Saturday for a work trip. I wish I could go! But that leaves me here to manage on my lonesome! That would be a first! If there's one thing I've learned living here, it's how to be ok with being alone. No sisters or parents to visit..& not as much good friends whose house you can just go to and DRINK!! Just daze and Jamie, lol jk! & that's fine! I got Koko anyways...she is such a blessing to me. Like my practice daughter! So sweet, playful, loving, cute...brings so much joy in our life! Haha! 

This is a shot of Koko driving us thru Waikiki in her lexus! It's crazy how much homeless people have started to setup their carts and just lay around here..kind of made it feel ghetto and unsafe. DISLIKE!!

This was a random Sunday Daisy and Chris happened to be on the north shore the same time as us..ended up meeting up and drinking wine and beer til the beach was completely dark. Was a beautiful day! 

& lastly a throwback of our awesome place on Koko isle..was just reminiscing how lucky we were to live there & how much fun it was! 

Anyways my coffee is getting cold! 

En route to San Franciscooo

Mike and I were just talking about how we would still travel if we had kids. Well, jumped on the plane and we are surrounded by kids under 3yo on all sides except the window!! Funny how God works. Should be an interesting flight....aloha!

2014

Happy 2014! I feel like this year will be an awesome one..it has already started out that way:) A few resolutions I have this year are to:

1) Be productive--making the most of my time off, spending less time on my phone, getting outdoors, making to-do lists regularly, and less laying around..

2) Be healthy-- doing a NPC bikini comp (HAHAHAH JK!!), eating more home cooked meals, tracking my food, better portion control/food choices, juice more, exercising a minimum of 3-4/wk, doing outdoor stuff for exercise, and also emotionally/mentally healthy too! (Lots of prayer/reflection) 

3) Save money-- set a budget, watch my shopping habits (esp online, eee!), do free things, less eating out, don't use credit card excessively, and less requesting shifts off, lol!

4) take care of myself!--this includes grooming of my toenails, eyebrows, bikini, legs, haircuts, etc! Lol! I have let myself go a little bit! 

5) keep busy w/ hobbies --keep myself busy with fixing up my place (cuz I am NOT moving this year!), learning to sew more things, try to use that damn surf board more, learning to cook, growing a mini herb/vegetable garden in my yard, & exploring hawaii. Maybe one big vacay sometime this year, too.

6) lastly, is to keep in regular contact with good friends and family:)

January has already went so quickly. I'm going to Tahoe on Thursday with mike (our Christmas gift to each other) for a quick wknd getaway so that should be fun..excited to board!!!!

For now..time to cook my own meal at home--sticking to the resolutions hahah!! Check out our homemade red lobster biscuits

Mmmmm..but not so healthy, haha!

Silence

..waiting for the phone to ring. Yup, put on call tonight. And I was actually ready to come to work after calling out for two shifts. The flu was killer--don't think I've had that for about three years. I was miserable..had a temp of up to 103.4! I remember shaking profusely with chills, then breaking my fever and having my body literally covered with beads of sweat! I was so lifeless, but now am feeling great! Well rested, appetites back, & ready to go home! Yay!!!

In a few hours, I'll be home! In a few days, I will see my grandma! & in a few more days, I'll be back here! Lol. It's going to go by so quickly, I know it.  But, I want time to go as slowly as possible. Time seems to just slip away too quickly nowadays. So I tried not to have too busy of an agenda, just want to enjoy the holidays with family and close friends..& even if I will really miss Mike&Koko... my heart will still be so very full! 

See ya soon San Diego. 

happy December!

I was placed on call at work..AGAIN..due to low census. So I'm laying in bed paranoid because last time I was on call, I totally knocked out and they couldn't get a hold of me! Oops, my bad! So I figured I would blog since I saw Jamie's email..but mostly because I wanted to tell you guys my new address before everyone sends out Christmas cards:

1020 Mamalu Place

honolulu HI 96817

So I didn't tell a lot of people mostly cuz it's kind of embarrassing (haha!)..but I moved again.  That would be a total of THREE moves in one year, & I'm hoping this place is going to be IT for a while. We broke our lease early because Mike just really couldn't stand the other place--it wasn't well ventilated, very small, & no outdoor space at all. Fortunately, the landlords were cool with it as long as we found them replacement tenants. It was a difficult difficult place to rent out because they were charging such high rent for a tiny place, but we found someone!! & I'm so happy to just move forward!

I'm dead serious that I'm not moving again! Haha. I can tell Mike is so totally stoked on our new living situation. It's an older house, but I think it has a lot of charm (which I guess I've grown to love in hawaii since we don't have nice huge eastlake homes). We also have a guest bedroom, unless Philbert moves in (haha we were trying to convince him!) Had Mike's friends help us move in a day..so it really wasn't bad at all. I think I consider us PROs already, lol. Some of my favorite things about the house would be: bananas, papayas, and puakenikeni (a wonderful smelling, pretty flower!) growing in our backyard!

We had seriously soo much bananas that we went to all our new neighbors on thanksgiving and gave everybody a big bunch!

And somehow between all the moving, I managed to trade my car in. I don't know how that happened, lol! A few years ago, Daisy and I test drove the lexus RX with my parents while they were in town. I was almost going to trade it then, but had emotional attachments to my car. Decided finally that one day my car was eventually going to be too small for me (the rear seats did not push down), so I decided to trade it in while it had good resell value. So, I'm a pretty happy camper..I feel like I can have kids now! Lmao..JK!!

1) in front of my new place

2) first beach day hahha!

Anyways, I'll be home for Christmas dec 18-26 =) Excited for:

1) spending time with family! We flew Inang in for Christmas..so soo soo happy to see her.  Also get to see everyone's new places since they all live separately now. Oh! & my sister&AJ got engaged too!! So a lot to celebrate this Christmas!

2) catching up with friends..& taking sewing classes..yes!!! hahah!

3) cold weather, good food, hot coffees, good shopping, and holiday spirit! 

All that's missing is Mike!!  We never spend Christmas together though, hahah!! We were thinking maybe next year we should work sooomething out?

It's 2:41am. I'm thinking they shouldn't call me in anymore..& I think I've blabbered enough. Here are a few more pics of whatevers...

Pumpkin patch on Halloween! Lol!

Getting ready for our first thanksgiving at our place with mikes sisters. Used the beer pong table for our dinner table. Gotta keep it classy!! LOL!!

Koko all sleepy after thanksgiving dinner! Just like me! 

& lastly Koko's new trick and our little mini tree. I think it's cute!

Goood freakin night!!! Zzzzzzzzzz

Flossie

Tropical storm Flossie coming close! Always better to be safe than sorry. We have a lot of warnings for tsunamis and floods& thankfully, we haven't had to experience any real emergencies. But can you imagine???!! Being stuck...on an island..during something like that? Mike and his family experienced when hurricane Iniki hit Kauai..homes completely destroyed and no running water/electricity for weeks! So now, he's always prepared--generator and all! (Good for me) But hopefully it will just be heavy rain that passes...just always pray the best!

I have been having the worst insomnia. Staying up til 4-5am on my days off cuz I simply can't sleep! I think even Melatonin stopped working for me....there's only so many lives I have on Candy Crush, things I can look at on Pinterest, people I follow on Fb/IG. I have watched so many movies...and it's so annoying. The idea of switching to day shift always crosses my mind but I will surely miss my night crew! Oh well not making a decision just yet...

I wish Mike was a nurse so he could have as many days off as me..& go on vacations as much as our schedule allows. I think of all my nursing couple friends...& i think it's sooo cool!! Then he could stay awake with me in the wee hours of the night! I could wake Him up without feeling bad!!! Oooh the perks! Oh well guess ill go bug Koko! ;)

lalalalalalaaaaaaa

I am on my 2nd movie at work. First, Burlesque. Next, the Blind Side. & after..probably infomercials..BOOO!! Stuck with one patient on our overflow side..so I'm just cruuuising!

Super bored. 

So I'm all moved in. Feels great to be normal again! My schedule is actually normal too now, so yay! Started running around my hood..and got a hot yoga groupon with Jamie. That was interesting!!! Hahah!! We are such the wannabe yogis ..

My puppy is a cool teenager now. She likes to hide under our bed and be by herself..too cool for her parents! Pretty funny. She's so funny..wish I could take her to Sd with us so u guys could meet her!

Hmm what else? Been trying to learn how to surf still..but dammit, it's so hard! Haha! Part of the reason I started running so I could have a little stamina. Not so easy learning new tricks when ur old! Lol!

Mike has also been wanting to check out this church called One love ministry so we actually went. It wasn't a catholic church..it was Christian. definitely different. Uplifting..Kind of reminded me of prayer meetings with Spirit of love. Everyone was super welcoming...Mike wants to go back. I'm down...just happy he is finding some kind of relationship with God? Beats no church at all! Haha. 

Anyways..I need new clothes. I seriously haven't been shopping in ages! Haven't bought a new outfit in forever! I remember I used to buy a new shirt every time I would go out...now I'm soo scrubby! hahah! I haven't even bought new scrubs for work for over 3yrs..they're all faded, lol! Is this what hawaii has done to me?

K enough rambling. Peace, love, shopping, and praying for one more movie to make the night quick!!! Lol!

Awoha!!

Wahh!

I'm a sad puppy mom this morning:(  I dropped my little furry friend to get spayed today. She'll be at the vet overnight. Came home to an empty house, nobody following my every step in the house and attached to my hip!!  My little furry bff. Hahah awww, I cannot imagine having a kid and having to be separated from them if this is how I am with a dog, lol!! 

This is Koko's new crate. We upgraded her to "high ceilings" since she's a big girl now:)

Other than that, no other big news! I know Sd fair opened. Went the other wknd with Mike and although I have learned to stop comparing honolulu to Sd , SD fair is like 20x bigger and better!! Lol!! No bomb bomb food, no themes, exhibits, shopping, animals, etc. :( hopefully next year ill plan a trip home around this time so I can go, it's been soo long!

kinda like those little fairs at kimball park in national city yah?!

Moving is coming along. Most of the moving has been done by...ME! haha. Mike was just assigned his first project and boy, have his long engineering workdays begun! Sometimes he even goes in on Saturdays! I feel sorry cuz here I am working 3x/wk and trying to get cancelled, lol. So yah, I've just been moving which I don't mind. I can be more organized and know where everything is. Either way, can't wait to just be moved in so I can have normalcy in my life again😁 I need to go back to the gym, cook my meals, sit down and read/watch tv, and just not feel like I always have to be moving stuff all the time haha.

           My small humble abode...

Anyways, miss everybooody! Since i cant go home til August, this will probably be the longest stretch I haven't been to SD since I moved out here. Haha, not even that long but sheesh..Im getting antsy! i wanna see G and J, and squeeze them! eat some legit carne asada fries! go to downtown and act like I'm 21! Haha. And  of course just kick it with everyone, even if its doing nothing! Sigh..haha!

Jamie's big 2-9 this wknd...!! will definitely take a break from moving to celebrate! Can't believe how old we're getting..

June

Ahh, a new month approaching..already!! Looks like its gonna be a busy month...MOVING again! Sucks cuz I don't want to go thru the process again, but also believe everything happens for a reason so just go with it. Moving farther away from work again...ayyye! But hopefully it won't be too bad. We are moving into a newly built unit in a nice neighborhood, so hopefully it will all be cherry. Pics to come of the new place!

The time has literally flown by me! Since the last time I posted, I completed the ultimate reset. It was super difficult...I lost 9lbs doing it..but I am too embarassed to post my before/after pics. Maybe if I lose 20lbs, lol.  Time to hit the gym and get more active now! Soon after I completed it, Lynn Lynn and her new boyfriend came to town. (Is it me or is everyone and their mama in hawaii?!) I like to blame Lynn for my ultimate REtox while she was here. Lol, jk! Had a lot of fun third wheeling with those two...so did Koko!

I kind of know how empty nest syndrome feels..cuz every time a family member/close friend visits and leaves..the feeling of an empty house and going back to work makes me kinda sad. I guess growing up in a house where family was always around--kinda miss that!! I am due for a trip home pretty soon..but probably August is the soonest I can go. 

So I looked at my calendar cuz I have been so MIA with hanging out. I haven't had a full wknd off since march..so sad!!! My June schedule I finally have a few Fridays off but work almost every Saturday! So hopefully after June is done and I'm all moved in, I can finally find some sort of work/life/social/bf balance/harmony! The libra in me needs this balance in my life..but lately feel like I have been letting my work schedule dictate my days. Thinking about maybe switching to days (thiiiinking, but not  sure!) But, really dreeeaming about going part time and doing something fun like being a flight attendant!! Hahah, I so wish!

My next small goal in life is to seriously learn how to surf small baby waves..I think this will be more possible since our new house is literally a few blocks to an uncrowded surf spot. My biggest fear was always that I would stand up..then run into people while riding the wave cuz the lineups are always so crowded! Lol! So I guess I always held back cuz I felt intimidated and scared. Prob gonna buy a used soft top long board to learn...& mike said if I graduate he would buy me my first official longboard, hahah! (Mike is officially on full time salary now, yay!) He bought me some surfer girl inspiration for our "anniversary" (although we don't really have an "anniversary" just 3yrs of being friends, haha) 

Should be a fun process cuz my ass needs a few new hobbies! 

Anyways literally have like 6 loads of laundry to do...ugh! Until next time!!! 

Day 3

So, I started the ultimate reset! First of all, the ingredient list was cray--I was walking thru whole foods literally for like an hour looking for all the things I needed. Thinking "where are the lentils?! Wtf does is look like. What the hell is tempeh? Who eats this stuff regularly?!" Hahah. Luckily, it is just down the street cuz I always forgot something!

On my first day, I was soo miserable. I went to work..craving coffee& with an annoying headache the whole shift. I was a grumpy, super sleepy nurse!! I also felt a little dazed, weird! I thought to myself like "wtf? This sucks!" But I read if you are a regular coffee drinker, that its normal. So I went to sleep and woke up still with a headache, grr. The food is good--pretty much nothing processed..all whole foods. And did I say no red meat?! The night before i started me and mike made some super fatty steaks &indulged on wine!! Thank goodness for Mike..he's super supportive and cheers me on! Haha.

So today I woke up soo much better. Energized, not sluggish. Not craving coffee. Having good bowel movements, lol! I'm never hungry..& to top it off, I lost 4lbs already. Yay! A lot must be water weight cuz I'm feeling a lot less bloated. But this is good cuz I was in the gym and doing my kickboxing videos since I came back from PI with super little progress. I guess it really is "80%diet 20%exercise" blablabla whatever it is. Haha. You can't really do vigorous exercising, so just been walking Koko girl twice a day for now.

Anyways, hope I can stick to it! I know I usually give up quickly on things (sadly) but hopefully not! My landlords mother passed away & his siblings want to sell the house...so if they decide to sell, we are gonna have to move again! Wahh! Praying we won't have to (totally dread it and hard to find pet friendly rentals)..& wishing I can just buy my own beautiful house! It's ok ...all in God's timing..yes! K going for a massage..until next time!:)