Almost a Year later..

Realizing that in less than a month, will make a year from when I made a crazy decision to live out here.

Today I went somewhere called China Walls by myself (pictured to the left). There's a huge south swell on Oahu, so it was like having my own front row seat to the huge waves. It was seriously amazing, never seen anything like it.

Anyways, while I was there I couldnt help but stare off into the horizon...thinking how I ended up somewhere in the middle of the Pacific ocean...sitting there alone...made me think a lot. I guess today I had one of those days where I was missing the life I used to live. Not paying rent, and going on vacation at least every other month--haha! Having way more than a handful of friends that were just a phone call away to have dinner or a drink, just hang out. Having family around is a big thing too, I guess. Lynnlynn was in town for a couple weeks, and while I totally didnt enjoy having her friends around (lol), I must admit that it was so comforting to have family in my presence. I guess I have that withdrawal feeling I always get when theyre around, and then suddenly not, haha. It's kind of lonely for a minute!! haha. Like doo doo dooo ::twiddle my fingers::

But I cannot say that I regret being here. I actually really like it! But today I got to thinking, hmm...I wonder for how long I can do it? When am I gonna get that Island fever?? I guess I'll go lease by lease, haha. And right now, the only way I see myself being here forever is if I happen to get knocked up and start my family here. Oh Lord, i don't wanna think about it. Oh did I forget the marriage part? haha, yes! Speaking of, Mike has surprisingly stuck around...haha. It's been over a year with only him, so thats really record-breaking for me, puahhaa. We are really two verry different people, but somehow it works. Works great. so I guess I can't complain....he's been a really good friend to me out here& I guess thats what means the most to me.

So as much as I want to know God's plan for me like RIGHT now...I know I have to be patient. I don't know how long I will be here. I dont know what Im doing with my life right now, haha. I dont know anything! lol. All I know is that I pray as often as I remember to, to be guided in the right direction. I have learned more and more growing up that I cannot have every answer right away...that what seems impossible to understand at the moment, will have a simple answer revealed in time. So many times I have looked back with such clarity on the decisions I have made in the past, both good&bad, and have been glad with how it has shaped my life today. So I guess there is not a doubt in my mind that there is a reason I'm out here...with daisy, jamie, and amber. There is purpose...we're not just here to have tans & drink:P lol.

Amen.

happy Sunday.

heyy guys..happy sunday!

oahu has been rained out the past few days...on my 4-day weekend off..Just my luck!:P but I did have a lot of relaxing days off. On my last day of work on thursday, I was called in at 3am and was given a patient that I was coding on and off from the time I arrived to 630 AM--I was soo ready for a break and a few days off...!!! I played pool friday night, watched a movie Saturday afternoon..Sel donado was in town...then we went to the Shack on Saturday night.

Todaaay...i slept..slept somemore...cooked some shrimp..did laundry..cleaned my room..read my boook...Ahh--perfect:)

I wanna go home again. Im thinking May...and again in June-July for the birth of my niece...and maybe del mar fair if it all coincides!

Anyways, been havin a lot on my mind....so it was good to do nothing. I will leave you here with some pictures....

PICTURES FROM WHALEWATCHING/SNORKELING

BBQ AT SANDYS

KAUAI TRIP

WHEN MICHELLE WAS IN TOWN

new year

Aloha!

So, it's 2011! Wow, how does time pass by this quickly?? Anyways, back in December had a great trip back home--was able to fulfill all my homesickness and come back here with a better attitude. I will always miss my family...but I know it's only a phonecall or skype away..or if i really need it.. a 5 hour flight=)

Work. has been good, getting better still. I am much more comfortable around my coworkers which matters the most to me...learning peoples faces..clicking with certain coworkers. the other day though...had a family member dislike me cuz I was not from Hawaii--how annoying. it was difficult to deal with...but at the same time, I was over it and tried not to let it bug me. Some people will be stuck in their ways here..so bleh, my life goes on :P

Home. coming back here, i try not to let anything bother me anymore. my roommates are all cool--different personalities. i still like the neighborhood we live in--nice view, hikes and beaches soo close by, all the shops accessible. only thing that drives me crazy is traffic--dont wanna get into that!

Fitness. been trying to get into this lately. soo far its been going good, i guess! haha. been doing couple hikes....running with daisy around our marina..or around diamond head. nice change of scenery. gym is literally down the block..thinking about picking up some weight classes...but well see! im not skinny tho..by any means! Lol.

Fun. surprisingly been less on the drinking tip than I used to. I cant drink anymore as much as I used to. well I can..but Ill be so ridiculously hung over that I get traumatized. My better idea of fun lately has been the whole beach thing...getting into the water..exploring the island...trying to find hobbies that are fitting to me--and then getting so tired that I cant even go out to drink at night! haha. Like today, me Jamie and Amber drank a few at Bellows...and night swam/attempted body surfed (lol) in the beach..that was a first! Came home and knocked the fck out--there goes my Saturday night! Also, went tandem surfing with Mike las week and was able to stand up on a few baby waves which was fun too! Tomorrow is probowl, were not going..so were gonna go beach and snorkel..try out Stand up paddle boarding. Should be fun! If I like it I wanna get one...and I think Jamie wants a body board to play in the waves..lol. So been having a lot of fun....i still like to go out occasionally..just hate wasting my precious days off hungover in bed! & did i mention the bar tabs?!! haha.

Etc. had another resolution to save money. so i have this whole budgeting thing so i can pay off my debt and save money...haha, i hope it works! all in all, have a healthier attitude being out here. feel blessed. looking forward to visitors, ahem. learning things about myself and growing in ways i probably dont realize for myself at this moment!

i miss you guys! 143.