happy Sunday.

heyy guys..happy sunday!

oahu has been rained out the past few days...on my 4-day weekend off..Just my luck!:P but I did have a lot of relaxing days off. On my last day of work on thursday, I was called in at 3am and was given a patient that I was coding on and off from the time I arrived to 630 AM--I was soo ready for a break and a few days off...!!! I played pool friday night, watched a movie Saturday afternoon..Sel donado was in town...then we went to the Shack on Saturday night.

Todaaay...i slept..slept somemore...cooked some shrimp..did laundry..cleaned my room..read my boook...Ahh--perfect:)

I wanna go home again. Im thinking May...and again in June-July for the birth of my niece...and maybe del mar fair if it all coincides!

Anyways, been havin a lot on my mind....so it was good to do nothing. I will leave you here with some pictures....

PICTURES FROM WHALEWATCHING/SNORKELING

BBQ AT SANDYS

KAUAI TRIP

WHEN MICHELLE WAS IN TOWN

new year

Aloha!

So, it's 2011! Wow, how does time pass by this quickly?? Anyways, back in December had a great trip back home--was able to fulfill all my homesickness and come back here with a better attitude. I will always miss my family...but I know it's only a phonecall or skype away..or if i really need it.. a 5 hour flight=)

Work. has been good, getting better still. I am much more comfortable around my coworkers which matters the most to me...learning peoples faces..clicking with certain coworkers. the other day though...had a family member dislike me cuz I was not from Hawaii--how annoying. it was difficult to deal with...but at the same time, I was over it and tried not to let it bug me. Some people will be stuck in their ways here..so bleh, my life goes on :P

Home. coming back here, i try not to let anything bother me anymore. my roommates are all cool--different personalities. i still like the neighborhood we live in--nice view, hikes and beaches soo close by, all the shops accessible. only thing that drives me crazy is traffic--dont wanna get into that!

Fitness. been trying to get into this lately. soo far its been going good, i guess! haha. been doing couple hikes....running with daisy around our marina..or around diamond head. nice change of scenery. gym is literally down the block..thinking about picking up some weight classes...but well see! im not skinny tho..by any means! Lol.

Fun. surprisingly been less on the drinking tip than I used to. I cant drink anymore as much as I used to. well I can..but Ill be so ridiculously hung over that I get traumatized. My better idea of fun lately has been the whole beach thing...getting into the water..exploring the island...trying to find hobbies that are fitting to me--and then getting so tired that I cant even go out to drink at night! haha. Like today, me Jamie and Amber drank a few at Bellows...and night swam/attempted body surfed (lol) in the beach..that was a first! Came home and knocked the fck out--there goes my Saturday night! Also, went tandem surfing with Mike las week and was able to stand up on a few baby waves which was fun too! Tomorrow is probowl, were not going..so were gonna go beach and snorkel..try out Stand up paddle boarding. Should be fun! If I like it I wanna get one...and I think Jamie wants a body board to play in the waves..lol. So been having a lot of fun....i still like to go out occasionally..just hate wasting my precious days off hungover in bed! & did i mention the bar tabs?!! haha.

Etc. had another resolution to save money. so i have this whole budgeting thing so i can pay off my debt and save money...haha, i hope it works! all in all, have a healthier attitude being out here. feel blessed. looking forward to visitors, ahem. learning things about myself and growing in ways i probably dont realize for myself at this moment!

i miss you guys! 143.

the Holidays.

The holidays are here..ohh myy. I dont know, it still feels like summer to me so I dont really feel too Holiday-ish. Plus jus been working working working these past couple days as well so that threw me off.

Everyday at work has been a learning experience. & what I thought was such an easy job, I have found isnt as easy as I thought..but hey, what do you expect out of nursing right? I wasnt comfortable when I first started, when through all those feelings of being a "new girl," not knowing where anything is or how anything works. But everyday has been slowly getting better, thank the Lord. I am learning the right way to deal with patients and families here, which is so much different oddly enough. What my manager told me is a lot of mainlanders unintentionally come off as "snobby" if you dont have "Aloha spirit." At first I was like huh??! but dealing with more families and patients, I know what she means. It is really a culture shock working here!! But other than that, my coworkers are all very cool for the most part..happy about that:)

hmm, Been missing home more than lately recently. It sometimes come to the point where sometimes I wondered if I could be happier here, or if I made the wrong decision in moving here. The biggest thing affecting me is not having my family around after having them around and so close to me for my whole life. I think about Inang a lot and always wonder how she's doing, and feel so happy everytime I talk to her on the phone; about my sisters and how I dont know whats 'cool' anymore cuz they knew all the new trends in fashion/music; about my Mom/Dad & how they are doing.... but I have realized that it's mostly because the holidays are around. Holidays are a time mostly for family for me...so I am so happy to be going home next week. I also know that if God didnt want for this to happen, it wouldnt have happened. The move here aligned so perfectly for all of us, I cant help but believe there is reason to me/us living here.

So I have decided to go home enjoy myself and everything I miss about San Diego, and come back to Hawaii refreshed and in a newer, fresh state of mind. A mindset where I know I am here to grow as a person..diversify myself..grow up. I want to hang out with people I wouldnt normally feel comfortable hanging out with, expose myself to the culture here, do things I have never done. I guess I was coming to the point here where I was getting into my own comfort 'bubble' again over here...which defeated the whole purpose of me coming here. I was always hanging out with the same people, turning down invitations from coworkers, getting into a routine of work and 'whatever'...always comparing how "i had so much friends at home and now I have only a handful" haha...pretty much not taking control of making the best of my situation. Because ultimately it is up to ME how this whole experience turns out!!

So all this is a result of a looott of self-reflection on my one hour commutes to and from work stuck in traffic!! Don't get me wrong, I am still having lots of fun/learning a lot over here....but I just know that there is so much more potential in this experience:) I know the first couple months is like a big speed bump, but I am very optimistic that things will only get better. It's funny..I always thought I was mentally stronger but I feel Im probably having the hardest time of my roommates..but it's nothing a big one week dose of HOME cannot fiX!

See you soon=) chhheeeeeeeee-hooo! haha.