welcome to the good life =)

Hau'oli Makahiki Hou!

2011-12-27T09:52:00.001-10:00

haha, new hawaiian phrase I learned for Happy New Year.

New year...alreaaady?! Seriously, what happened? I feel like I blinked and the year flew right before my eyes! How was everybody's Christmas???

With the Cummings Ohana, and my sleepy ass looking all tired!!

This would mark my first Christmas away from family. Kinda sad, but work has been keeping me busy. With two of the major hospitals on Oahu closing, our little itty bitty hospital is now one of the major hospitals for the entire Leeward side of the island= NUTS!!! Our little 8 bed ICU is not cutting it--we are constantly understaffed..and slamming with admissions. The hospital is bursting out of its seams...I really hope something happens about it....Haha but back to my Christmas!! So Mike's family kindly flew me in to spend Christmas in Kauai with them. Straight off a crazy 12-hr shift, jumped on a plane to Kauai and stayed up til like 3pm. It was a simple Christmas with the Cummings family--ate breakfast, opened gifts, watched ball, ate.....was nice, but definitely still missed the comforts of home and my own family--nothing will ever compare. Afterwards, we headed over to his Grandma's party where I had fun laughing at/with his crazy, yet funny family. & that was about it...flew back home early the next morning and went back to work!

My last new years in SD, 2010:) :) good times!

Now New Years is coming up..and wow, I can't believe it. I remember saying living a year out here in Hawaii was good enough, but daaang--that went by super fast. I can't really remember anything suuper spectacular from 2011, but I do recognize my own personal growth which is good enough=). Living out here has made me realize who and what really matters to me. What makes ME happy, not everyone else--learning to live my life according to only me(w/ a little or a lot of influence fr God:) ) I have learned how to keep my sanity (lol), how to be alone, &how to Love somebody like that (lol, ew). I have also learned stupid things like what makes me yak when I drink hard, the perfect combination to cure my hangovers, how to fuh-reeeeeakin do my own damn laundry! (lol), how to paddleboard and hit a golf ball (still practicing that one), and how to sit back, cruise, and enjoy the scenery. Life is simple and doesnt have to be complicated, and I must say I have learned to live simply...sometimes a little tooooo simply! But as simple as life gets, life can still get hard but i have grown tougher skin for those moments...maybe not super tough but definitely not fragile! I have also learned how to forgive, that nobody is perfect. I've learned to endure when I feel like I am being tested, and know now more than before that sometimes it's okay to cry---that it actually feels really good to let one out once in a while!! & most of all, I have learned to put my Trust in God--completely&unquestionably, knowing that everything happens according to His will.........which comes to my first resolution of the New Year!

1) go to CHURCH So yeah, the entire time I have been here..I have not been to church. Not once! Haha. The only times I have been is when I go home. But I do pray often, a lot has been done in my car on my long commutes to work--really therapeutic tho!:)

2) SAVE$$$ I am officially credit card DEBT FREEEE for the new year. After years of suppression from those damn credit cards, i am FREEEE!! now is a great time to save...like forreals!!

3) ACTIVE LIFESTYLE do more. No better place to than Hawaii! Try new things if I need to, but just stop being a lazy piggy sometimes. Consistency is my problem:/

4) TRAVEL INTERNATIONAL Somewhere, anywhere...not SD, haha. Went home like 5 or more times last year it feels like?!

5) pass my CCRN. actually this is not reallly a resolution, but my boss is making me take this damn test by march...so I have to get in the mindset to study for it.

6) BE HAPPY. whatever it is.....just be content.

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!! LOVE YOU GUYS...seeeee you in January!!!=)

BIGGEST LOOOOOSER

2011-10-03T17:50:00.004-10:00

Diet. Hormones. Lack of Activity. Boyfriend. Drinking.....SOMETHING!!!

But a couple weeks ago at SD, my Mom, sisters, and I entered a "Biggest Loser" competition with each other.....the winner gets 200 bucks, 2nd place gets their money back. But to my surprise, I stepped on the scale on weigh-in day....and my jaw dropped!!

OMG. No I do not weigh that much...step off the scale, step on. Okay, WAHHHH, I do. =( LOL. I mean I know I did gain some weight, but Oh Myyyy...i didnt think that MUCH!!! It really dawned on me at Inangs party when everyone was like "Oh Cel...look at you, tabaa! you must me so happy with your boypren in hawaii!" NNNNOOOOOOOOOoo! no no no no no!!! LOL

After that, I really didn't feel good about myself. I guess this would be my turning point. You know how you always read those weight loss stories, and they have some kind of enlightening moment in their life...where theyre like No more! Well...that would be mine.

When I came back to Hawaii, I was determined not to go on a "diet"..but make a healthy lifestyle change. With both my parents diabetic, the doctor once told me "it's not a matter of IF Im going to get diabetes...but WHEN." And ohh boy, I do not want to be poking myself checking my blood sugar in my 50s...and I sure as hell dont want my belly entering the room before I do!!!

Since Ive came back, I've cut back a lot...on one my meanest culprits, RICE. How can you avoid it in plate lunch central?!! haha. I've been shoving a bunch of greens down. Drinking more water instead of soda/juice. Preparing my meals instead of buying them. Entering 24 hr fitness, instead of driving past it. LOL. Even had Mike fix his bike for me, and been bike riding through all the rich neighborhoods around here. Took my paddle board out like it needed to for a long time......

& I feel GOOD. I feel more energized and less like a sloth. I dont need to drink as much coffee. I might not be super skinny yet....but I am determined to wear my jeans comfortably again!! & vow never to let myself get that way again......Cheers to healthy living=)

(Another post about Inangs<3 going away later)a

Almost a Year later..

2011-08-29T21:38:00.005-10:00

Realizing that in less than a month, will make a year from when I made a crazy decision to live out here.

Today I went somewhere called China Walls by myself (pictured to the left). There's a huge south swell on Oahu, so it was like having my own front row seat to the huge waves. It was seriously amazing, never seen anything like it.

Anyways, while I was there I couldnt help but stare off into the horizon...thinking how I ended up somewhere in the middle of the Pacific ocean...sitting there alone...made me think a lot. I guess today I had one of those days where I was missing the life I used to live. Not paying rent, and going on vacation at least every other month--haha! Having way more than a handful of friends that were just a phone call away to have dinner or a drink, just hang out. Having family around is a big thing too, I guess. Lynnlynn was in town for a couple weeks, and while I totally didnt enjoy having her friends around (lol), I must admit that it was so comforting to have family in my presence. I guess I have that withdrawal feeling I always get when theyre around, and then suddenly not, haha. It's kind of lonely for a minute!! haha. Like doo doo dooo ::twiddle my fingers::

But I cannot say that I regret being here. I actually really like it! But today I got to thinking, hmm...I wonder for how long I can do it? When am I gonna get that Island fever?? I guess I'll go lease by lease, haha. And right now, the only way I see myself being here forever is if I happen to get knocked up and start my family here. Oh Lord, i don't wanna think about it. Oh did I forget the marriage part? haha, yes! Speaking of, Mike has surprisingly stuck around...haha. It's been over a year with only him, so thats really record-breaking for me, puahhaa. We are really two verry different people, but somehow it works. Works great. so I guess I can't complain....he's been a really good friend to me out here& I guess thats what means the most to me.

So as much as I want to know God's plan for me like RIGHT now...I know I have to be patient. I don't know how long I will be here. I dont know what Im doing with my life right now, haha. I dont know anything! lol. All I know is that I pray as often as I remember to, to be guided in the right direction. I have learned more and more growing up that I cannot have every answer right away...that what seems impossible to understand at the moment, will have a simple answer revealed in time. So many times I have looked back with such clarity on the decisions I have made in the past, both good&bad, and have been glad with how it has shaped my life today. So I guess there is not a doubt in my mind that there is a reason I'm out here...with daisy, jamie, and amber. There is purpose...we're not just here to have tans & drink:P lol.

Amen.

happy Sunday.

2011-03-06T19:09:00.005-10:00

heyy guys..happy sunday!

oahu has been rained out the past few days...on my 4-day weekend off..Just my luck!:P but I did have a lot of relaxing days off. On my last day of work on thursday, I was called in at 3am and was given a patient that I was coding on and off from the time I arrived to 630 AM--I was soo ready for a break and a few days off...!!! I played pool friday night, watched a movie Saturday afternoon..Sel donado was in town...then we went to the Shack on Saturday night.

Todaaay...i slept..slept somemore...cooked some shrimp..did laundry..cleaned my room..read my boook...Ahh--perfect:)

I wanna go home again. Im thinking May...and again in June-July for the birth of my niece...and maybe del mar fair if it all coincides!

Anyways, been havin a lot on my mind....so it was good to do nothing. I will leave you here with some pictures....

PICTURES FROM WHALEWATCHING/SNORKELING

BBQ AT SANDYS

KAUAI TRIP

WHEN MICHELLE WAS IN TOWN

new year

2011-01-30T01:58:00.003-10:00

Aloha!

So, it's 2011! Wow, how does time pass by this quickly?? Anyways, back in December had a great trip back home--was able to fulfill all my homesickness and come back here with a better attitude. I will always miss my family...but I know it's only a phonecall or skype away..or if i really need it.. a 5 hour flight=)

Work. has been good, getting better still. I am much more comfortable around my coworkers which matters the most to me...learning peoples faces..clicking with certain coworkers. the other day though...had a family member dislike me cuz I was not from Hawaii--how annoying. it was difficult to deal with...but at the same time, I was over it and tried not to let it bug me. Some people will be stuck in their ways here..so bleh, my life goes on :P

Home. coming back here, i try not to let anything bother me anymore. my roommates are all cool--different personalities. i still like the neighborhood we live in--nice view, hikes and beaches soo close by, all the shops accessible. only thing that drives me crazy is traffic--dont wanna get into that!

Fitness. been trying to get into this lately. soo far its been going good, i guess! haha. been doing couple hikes....running with daisy around our marina..or around diamond head. nice change of scenery. gym is literally down the block..thinking about picking up some weight classes...but well see! im not skinny tho..by any means! Lol.

Fun. surprisingly been less on the drinking tip than I used to. I cant drink anymore as much as I used to. well I can..but Ill be so ridiculously hung over that I get traumatized. My better idea of fun lately has been the whole beach thing...getting into the water..exploring the island...trying to find hobbies that are fitting to me--and then getting so tired that I cant even go out to drink at night! haha. Like today, me Jamie and Amber drank a few at Bellows...and night swam/attempted body surfed (lol) in the beach..that was a first! Came home and knocked the fck out--there goes my Saturday night! Also, went tandem surfing with Mike las week and was able to stand up on a few baby waves which was fun too! Tomorrow is probowl, were not going..so were gonna go beach and snorkel..try out Stand up paddle boarding. Should be fun! If I like it I wanna get one...and I think Jamie wants a body board to play in the waves..lol. So been having a lot of fun....i still like to go out occasionally..just hate wasting my precious days off hungover in bed! & did i mention the bar tabs?!! haha.

Etc. had another resolution to save money. so i have this whole budgeting thing so i can pay off my debt and save money...haha, i hope it works! all in all, have a healthier attitude being out here. feel blessed. looking forward to visitors, ahem. learning things about myself and growing in ways i probably dont realize for myself at this moment!

i miss you guys! 143.

the Holidays.

2010-12-15T18:27:00.002-10:00

The holidays are here..ohh myy. I dont know, it still feels like summer to me so I dont really feel too Holiday-ish. Plus jus been working working working these past couple days as well so that threw me off.

Everyday at work has been a learning experience. & what I thought was such an easy job, I have found isnt as easy as I thought..but hey, what do you expect out of nursing right? I wasnt comfortable when I first started, when through all those feelings of being a "new girl," not knowing where anything is or how anything works. But everyday has been slowly getting better, thank the Lord. I am learning the right way to deal with patients and families here, which is so much different oddly enough. What my manager told me is a lot of mainlanders unintentionally come off as "snobby" if you dont have "Aloha spirit." At first I was like huh??! but dealing with more families and patients, I know what she means. It is really a culture shock working here!! But other than that, my coworkers are all very cool for the most part..happy about that:)

hmm, Been missing home more than lately recently. It sometimes come to the point where sometimes I wondered if I could be happier here, or if I made the wrong decision in moving here. The biggest thing affecting me is not having my family around after having them around and so close to me for my whole life. I think about Inang a lot and always wonder how she's doing, and feel so happy everytime I talk to her on the phone; about my sisters and how I dont know whats 'cool' anymore cuz they knew all the new trends in fashion/music; about my Mom/Dad & how they are doing.... but I have realized that it's mostly because the holidays are around. Holidays are a time mostly for family for me...so I am so happy to be going home next week. I also know that if God didnt want for this to happen, it wouldnt have happened. The move here aligned so perfectly for all of us, I cant help but believe there is reason to me/us living here.

So I have decided to go home enjoy myself and everything I miss about San Diego, and come back to Hawaii refreshed and in a newer, fresh state of mind. A mindset where I know I am here to grow as a person..diversify myself..grow up. I want to hang out with people I wouldnt normally feel comfortable hanging out with, expose myself to the culture here, do things I have never done. I guess I was coming to the point here where I was getting into my own comfort 'bubble' again over here...which defeated the whole purpose of me coming here. I was always hanging out with the same people, turning down invitations from coworkers, getting into a routine of work and 'whatever'...always comparing how "i had so much friends at home and now I have only a handful" haha...pretty much not taking control of making the best of my situation. Because ultimately it is up to ME how this whole experience turns out!!

So all this is a result of a looott of self-reflection on my one hour commutes to and from work stuck in traffic!! Don't get me wrong, I am still having lots of fun/learning a lot over here....but I just know that there is so much more potential in this experience:) I know the first couple months is like a big speed bump, but I am very optimistic that things will only get better. It's funny..I always thought I was mentally stronger but I feel Im probably having the hardest time of my roommates..but it's nothing a big one week dose of HOME cannot fiX!

See you soon=) chhheeeeeeeee-hooo! haha.

Adjusting..

2010-11-21T15:51:00.002-10:00

so everyone is here. Me, Jamie, Daisy, & Amber!

Weve all been adjusting..getting used to living with each other..while getting used to living over here in Hawaii. I cant believe it's been two months. Time is going soo fast. While we were signing our rental agreement, I guess it put the time frame in perspective for us...we'll be here until May 2012. An 18 month contract, 2012?!!!!

Sometimes I still imagine this a big vacation and I get to go back to SD to my old job, and live back with my family..haha. But this is REALITY!!! This is what we all wanted. & even if this is what I wanted, I still can't help but miss home sometimes. We were talking about it the other day. It's a different feeling living away from family..knowing that life goes on with or without you at home. Giselle is still gonna grow up & wont stay a baby forever...& I likely will miss out on the birth of my up n coming niece/nephew =( (yes, Papic is preggo!!) & even if Im here with my really good friends, I still miss my other friends. Even if we never hung out all the time, being away makes me really appreciate the things/people I took for granted I guess.

So it's us four...& even if homesickness is a factor..I try not to make it a big factor. I already knew it wasnt gonna be easy these first few months!! Ive been warned!! So I try not to let it get the best of me, and live it up while I'm here! We been trying to explore the island, go to different beaches, go out and meet different people. Saw pretty huge waves on the North Shore for my first time! Still working on making some worthwhile friends here who wont think were too crazy tho:P The place is starting to look more and more like a home...we really do NEED a TV tho, haha. Jamie went to some filipino store in WAIPAHUuuuu! haha, and got all these filipino stuff: longonisa, sukang maasim, sinigang packets, patis. LOL. sooo that was coool..we had Longonisa this morning and sisig, *burrrrp!

A few days ago, I took care of a pastor who moved here from the mainland 20 yrs ago, who seriously touched my heart. He was a wise man, had a lot of good things to say about life, myself, and my move to Hawaii. Pretty much reassured me that we made the right decision in moving here. He told me the people here are one of a kind--that I'll never meet people more amazing...& I must say everyone here has been so nice to all of us girls. Truly a lot of Aloha everywhere we go. He also told me that we were very brave to move away and that first 3-6 months would be the hardest, adjusting to the different culture and life here, esp. being away from our families. But he told me after pushing thru that first 6 months, we'll start to put our heads up and actually look around and appreciate everything/everyone around us...then once we stop comparing things to home, then that's when Hawaii will finally feel like a home for us..........

But for now....let the Vacation continue!;) hahaa, jk. Aloha!

Koko Isle

2010-11-08T01:05:00.002-10:00

Alas, we have internet!!=)

Since we came back from the wedding, we settled into our place over here at Koko Isle Circle. The weather has been windy and rainy, but for the last few days, has cleared up aside from the tradewinds. Although it is a trek driving to and from work, I must say that i LOVE where we live! Nice to wake up to a nice breeze, nice view, nice neighborhood. Everything is close to us aside from work, so cant complain so much! I cant wait till Daze and Amber get here so our house will be complete with roommates!! Me and Jamie barely see each other cuz of our opposite schedules, so at least I'll have another nightshifter Daze to explore the island with on my days off!

Slowly, the house is becoming a home. Started by getting things like utensils, rice cooker, coffeemaker, pots.....then a bed, sheets...and a couch today! haha. All we really NEED is a nice TV for the living room and a dining table since its looking like were all sticking around for turkey day.

Im trying to go home for Christmas..I reallly realllly want to! So hopefully my requested schedule pulls through. Anyways, here are some of our visitors=) HAHA, just Kat n Mike but philberts here so hopefully I can add more.

Beautiful Kaua'i!

2010-10-19T13:39:00.006-10:00

one of the wettest spots on earth below

so pretty, you can take helicopter tours here

the grand canyon of the pacific

famous for their red dirt

Wailua River

Beautiful Hanalei bay

Birthday Eve

2010-10-17T18:44:00.000-10:00

This will be my first birthday away from most of my friends and family. I was supposed to work tonight but for some GREAT reason, they decided to put me on standby. They said they will try not to call me but Im just happy to be kind of off for now. My family sang happy birthday to me on Skype and I thought it was super gay, but when I hung up with them I was by myself and it was all of a sudden quiet--THOSE are the times when Im like damn, I wish I can just go home.

But other than those moments, it's been good. Went to Buffalo Wild Wings yesterday to watch the UH game..kinda a big deal around here. I must say it was an exciting game though. Been missing the Chargers games tho?! I guess its good considering we lost to two pretty shitty teams huh?? Anyways, Going home on Thursday! Crazy how Ruth is getting married..so happy for her though. Gary is a cool guy and Im excited for the wedding although I wish I could be smaller! lol. ANNND Im turning 26...and Im starting to realize FINALLY that were getting old. 26. So not a cool sounding age. Just sounds O-L-D. haha.

Anyways got myself a little birthday present:)

A Hello Kitty beach bag! Isnt it cute? haha.

Anywayss....see everyone this weekend!!

This is a video footage of our new place:) Im excited to move in. Hope you guys are all planning your vacays!!:)

WORK&HOME

2010-10-15T09:24:00.000-10:00

So I am officially on my own at work, and I must say it is NOT as intimidating as I thought it was. The doctors are 10X nicer than scripps, and everyone on my shift is really helpful. I also have a lot more autonomy to do things (i.e. adjust vent settings, actually having central lines, giving more drugs). The whole charting thing is on computer which I am NOT used to..but I can get used to it. I guess you can say everyone works around the Nurse over there, haha. We get one critical care tech who does all my sugars, I&Os, watches my rhythms...and all i have to do is click "confirm" for whatever he does for me. Then I have a nurse assistant who does my other stuff like change diapers, linens, etc. The RT does my EKGs, really good about doing my oral care & suctioning...meanwhile, I'm sitting there like UHHHH.....i feel like Im not doing anything but charting. Haha, but we'll see how it goes?!! I only worked three nights.

Traffic is crazy here. I dont remember this much traffic on all my vacations here. But sometimes, it could take you 20 minutes to drive 5 miles cuz everything is so backed up. I also got my first speeding ticket going...SIXTY MPH! haha. it was on my first day to work too. It was a 50mph zone. The officer noticed I just moved there cuz my Cali plates and registration, I was using my GPS, ANNND I had my scrubs on to the first day of work. I could tell he felt bad but he already wrote the ticket and just gave it to me...he SUCKS! Anyways, Im gonna write a letter to the judge explaining the circumstances and see if I can get a break.

Lastly, we finally found a place at Koko Isle Circle (that place on my other link). Were going to meet with the landlord today to finalize things, so everyone start planning your vacays!:) The place is really nice and Im excited to FINALLY have our own place. More pics to come! Anyways, coming home next week for Ruths wedding!! I have Thanksgiving weekend off but guess how much airfare is..1600?!!! WHOA! hopefully it might go down if i try to fly out last minute but well see! K time to go register my car finally. i Miss everyone at home...!

Lanikai

2010-10-06T19:56:00.000-10:00

Today me and Jamie finally hung out..we went to Lanikai beach and had a very relaxing time chillin under my brand new Billabong beach umbrella=) Unfortunately, the beaches on that side of the island are known for Portugese man o'war...and jamie got stung by one! It was so small...we didnt even know what it was but we were both freaking out! Jamies arm got a few rashes....

Anyways, we were talking about what an exciting time of our lives it is. Everything so far is..."cherry" as they would say over here. haha. I've been having a lot of fun and cant wait till we get our own place...

speaking of, I think I fell in love with a place I just found on craigslist. Right on the water in Koko isle, looks perfect to me!!! SERIOUSLY. if we can get this place, i would be 100% happy!!!!!

http://honolulu.craigslist.org/oah/apa/1993026927.html

week ONE

2010-10-04T23:42:00.000-10:00

So it's been a week over here...a week of vacation!

Aside from a few errands here and there, my first week as a resident in Hawaii comprised mostly of finding things to do and familiarizing myself with everything (surprisingly I am always lost even if Ive been here sooo many times). I've been busy and havent given myself the chance to necessarily miss home yet...I mean occasionally I'll have a moment where I think about certain people and wish I see them real quick..but that was nothing that Skype couldn't take care of. I have never used my laptop soo much!! Haha.

I have my car here and it still has its California plates..Im having a few technical difficulties with registering my car here. Thinking about it, I have had to learn how to do a lot of "grown up things" by myself. Things like making sure my insurance policy complies with the state, registering my car, shipping my vehicle, going to rental showings and communicating with realtors, etc. Pretty much everything about moving here, I have had to figure out and fund for myself...an accomplishment for me I guess..thank God for google!!!

It hasn't 100% hit me that Im living here. But I guess since I started work today...Im thinking it will start to sink in. Today, we had a corporate orientation and honestly I am sooo impressed by how organized Hawaii Pacific Health is. The leaders are humble and seem to have a lot of integrity, the organization itself just seems to surpass all my expectations that I had for any hospital in Hawaii. They have an excellent reputation on the island which I have learned from speaking to some of the locals around here--patient satisfaction scores for inpatient and ED consistently remain in the 90th percentile throughout the fiscal year which is fucking unbelievable!!!(at least compared to Scripps) .. the people who were hired with me all seem like quality people...benefits are really good..and to wrap it up, I feel very lucky to have landed this job!! I am actually excited to work and see how this all ends up. It just feels like a serious step up from my previous workplace....like the breath of fresh air that Ive been wanting in my career. So thaaank you Lord for this opportunity=)

Other than that, just been hanging out. The food in Hawaii is seriously AMAZING! Honestly a lot of food in the hole-in-the-wall places tastes better than most food in San Diego. Like my taste buds dance everytime I eat here..one time I was actually doing a little dance while I was eating bc the food is just THAT good. But yesterday, I officially started a diet wedding:( Very minimal carbs, and running at least 30 mins everyday that I can.

My roomie has been pretty chill, haha. I am really thankful that me and Jamies roomies are letting us do this because we are saving sooo much money, but at the same time Im ready to get our own place and do our own thing. Soo I hope that we get a worthy place soon:) As long as my REAL future roomies (daisy/jamie/ber) get their job offers;) Surprisingly havent hung out with Jamie that much because were always doing different things and jamie is a mountain woman right now(jk) but well probably hang out tomorrow...Oh yeah, I went with Mike to Kaua'i for like 2 days..which is SO so beautiful btw. I also met his parents/grandparents..soo yeahh- i dunno, haha but that was cool. I will post pics of the garden island soon!

Aloha for now!

yahoo horoscopes

2010-09-14T05:24:00.000-10:00

I dont know, it's uncanny to me how on point my yahoo horoscope has been lately..haha.

September 14, 2010

Libra (9/23-10/22)
You're due for a brand new start in the department of family, home and emotions. Needless to say, there's a lot going on in your life, even if it isn't quite obvious to others at the moment. Do yourself a favor, though: Take the bull by the horns, and take the first step yourself. You'll be so proud of yourself that you may not even realize that you're just a teeny bit nervous about all this.

12 DAYS

2010-09-14T05:05:00.000-10:00

12 days left to enjoy SD!!!

I am officially moved out of the only place Ive called home: Viewpoint DR! Now I'm living on some street name none of us really know how to pronounce! haha. I must admit, aside from the drive over here, it is pretty cool how everything is conveniently around..even most of my friends houses. But it's also weird because I cant get too comfortable here. Most of my boxes I'm leaving in boxes....annnd I dunno, its weird. haha. You guys should come over once its a lil less crazy here.

My coworkers threw me a sweet going away breakfast. Funny how when you leave, people tell you the most heartfelt and kind things about yourself. I remember when I first started, I used to sit at my desk/corner thinking "ughh Im the only young person here!" haha, but they have all grown on me! They have been super supportive since I was a rookie ICU nurse...always having my back when I didnt know what to do! LOL. I pray that my new coworkers are just as coool. I also have been calling in sick to use up my PSD(sick days) since I have 180 hours that I can't cash out. Feel bad, but everyone told me to do it. But I will be showing up to my last two days of work which are this Weds and Fri.

Anyways, time for dinner tonight! it's Been a while...cant wait!

it's really happening..

2010-09-08T09:19:00.000-10:00

hello, so I decided I was going to start blogging here again. The other thing was giving me technical difficulties so I'll be typing here for now until I figure it out!

soo, AHHH! it's really happening. like really...reeallly. like omg! haha. sometimes i cant really wrap my head around it. thinking to myself..wtf am i doing?! the best analogy I can come up with is that my life was like a puzzle..neatly pieced together hanging in a pretty frame. then I got tired of looking at it and decide to throw it on the ground and now all the puzzle pieces are scattered all over the floor! haha. that is seriously how I felt when I first accepted the job, but slowly I have been able to piece things together & make a plan...so a lot of the anxiety has simmered down..and it's more bittersweet than anything. Ailene told me, "it's ok Maricel..the puzzle in the frame was just a kiddie puzzle with like 6 pieces...time for you to put together an adult puzzle." LOL.

I'm excited but I also feel sad for a lot of reasons. Number one being that I'll miss all my family and close friends. The rest of San Diego though, I can care less...and I can't wait to get away from you people! lol. Been trying to spend a lot of quality time with everyone (been mostly my family lately) and seems like the more time I spend..the more sad I feel knowing I'm leaving them. Like I hope Baby G wont forget me..I hope Inang will be fine..but ANYWAYS! I plan on going home frequently so I try not to worry about it. As for you my friends, I know we'll keep in touch. Everyone set up your skype accounts!:) & everyone start blogging again!

We are also in the active process of moving out of the place Ive called home for 26 years. The new place is pretty nice and I'm actually bummed I dont get to live there at all. I got downgraded to the smallest room in the house..:( The downstairs of my house is almost empty and they are going to start moving in the bedrooms this weekend. Siiiigh* My room is halfway packed..most of my things in boxes. Got rid of 2 large boxes of clothes and belongings I don't use/need (Amazing how easy junk/old clothes accumulate!). Soo yup, going to hawaii with a box of clothes! Alriiight! lol.

On the brighter side of things, I am so very excited! Happy Jamie is coming...Daisy is in the process of looking for a job..and my sisters friend, Amber is going to join along. It makes all the difference knowing you wont be alone! While I am there, I plan on visiting all the islands of Hawaii...and my new bucketlist of destinations while Im there include: Australia, New Zealand, and Bali or somewhere in Asia. I'm excited to practice "Aloha Nursing," lol...and just experience nursing in another environment with different people (although I do hate being the "new" girl at first). I'm excited to meet new people and make new friends..and excited to just have a richer life. Move out & grow up..learn to cook and do laundry, lol. Decorate our new place! and entertain our many visitors while we are there..haha!

So yes, definitely excited...jus gotta get over the sadness of leaving everything behind. T-18days, ready..set.GO!

new Moon!

2010-06-11T14:19:00.001-10:00

playing around with my mac found an app to make a website.....haha..jus another blog with pics tho

http://web.me.com/itsmaricel

ahhH!

2010-03-22T18:59:00.000-10:00

The lack of privacy I have at home is starting to get at me. I think I have been room-less for more than 3 weeks. Sleeping on the couches/in my grandmas room; dressing up in the spare room with all my clothes piled on a bed is disastrous; doing my makeup in the hallway; putting my shoes in random parts of the house; putting my purses and work stuff in the guest room; & even struggling to find a place to chill because I need a socket to charge on my phone and computer!

soo frustrating. Cant even have a phone conversation without somebody listening. Driving me crazy. I just want to be in a room, watch my TV, play on my computer, lock my door--completely UNDISTURBED...

..I have re-evaluated moving out and its not something I want to do ideally. That would be at least 700/month on top of my car payment, auto insurance, phone payment.....blaaaaah. I hate being an adult.

ANYWAYS, yah i feel like im going a lil craaazy!! helllllp!! :O

p.s. i love my mom and grandma to death....but WHYYYY are they always packing balikbayan boxes year round?!! and whyyyy are they such HOARDERS!!! its craaaaaaazy.

SUNSHINE

2010-03-11T08:21:00.000-10:00

helloo, probably to nobody, cuz I dont think anyone reads these blogs anymore. haha

With the sunshine coming out more often, I literally feel like I am rising from the dead. HAHA. I dont know, I am so over the being cold, wearing boots, layering my clothes. I wanna put on shorts and slippers, go swimming, get some Vitamin D! I feel happier like that, haha.

Anyways, just been working a lot. And working out a lot. My little "incident" in January has added on some stubborn pounds & it makes me so SAD :( Like seriously. I have been eating right, going to the gym at least 4X/wk, regular BMs (haha)--but it wont go away:( so frustrating, but hopefully when I resume my . --things will look better. keeping my fingers crossed!

Because of some haps at home, I am contemplating moving out. Nothing personally about my family or anything like that, more like something about my living condition that stinks--literally! lol. ill share with you guys next time I see you. So yah, definitely cannot afford a mortgage on my own, so well seeeee...

hmm, what else??? nothing really! Were going to Miami & checking out the Bahamas on a cruise. excited because its a new destination. Other than that, thats all! Cant wait for summer! hahah.

Words of Wisdom

2010-01-06T02:02:00.000-10:00

“People are unreasonable,

illogical, and self-centered;

forgive them anyway. If you are

kind, people may accuse you of

selfish, ulterior motives; be kind

anyway. If you are successful,

you will win some false friends

and true enemies; succeed

anyway. If you are honest and

frank, people may cheat you;

be honest and frank anyway.

What you spend years building,

someone could destroy

overnight; build anyway. If you

find serenity and happiness,

they may be jealous; be happy

anyway. The good you do

today, people will often forget

tomorrow; do good anyway.

Give the world the best you’ve

got anyway. You see, in the final

analysis, it is between you and

God; it was never between you

and them anyway.”

– Mother Teresa

Yay!

2009-12-29T10:17:00.001-10:00

I finally got my new car:) A 2010 Lexus IS250. I love it!!!

the interior I chose:

and the exterior I posted on facebook. It took a couple of weeks for my ass to officially decide on getting it, and months and months of eyeing different cars..but Im pretty happy about it. My first big purchase!!

As soon as my car was delivered, my Dad called the insurance and cut me off entirely from his policy and made me get my own. He took my Integra keys :( and made me clean out the car! Then when I came back from Disneyland, he had already given it a paint job!!! I felt bittersweet about it...my Integra was so goood to me!!!

Anyways, New Year is creepin around the corner!! & yet everyone I talk to has noo idea what they want to do!!

2010 RESOLUTIONS:

1. Stop being lazy. This whole year Ive found excuses to procrastinate around everything I want to accomplish. From things as simple as cleaning out my closet to getting something I need for work. So I guess I want to be more productive!

2. Work harder at budgeting my $$$$. Haha, the whole 09 I literally threw it in the bag. I went on like 100 trips planned and spontaneous, each time spending money like it grew off trees. I guess because I really had no financial responsibilities. I am planning on putting like 1g a month straight to the savings acct. Out of sight, out of mind!

3. Keepin it real. Always too nice to say no, to speak up to someone when they do something I dont like....it will be a slow process, but definitely something I wanna work on.

4. Eco-friendly. Less costco water bottles, more re-usable things. Re-using the alcohol pads from the end of my shift for the next time I work. Just stop doing everything in excess. Every little thing counts.

5. Lose weight. Typical, say it every year...but somehow I always slack off!

6. Dont take what I have for granted. Remember to pray more, be more conscious of every blessing and be thankful to God for everything..and make that effort to give just that 1 hour to him a week (Church). I always find excuses: too lazy, football, hung over, out of town, work...how sad :/

7. Dont let someones negativity pull me down. Just have fun, live life, and be happy.

Christmas List

2009-11-25T01:46:00.000-10:00

Thought I should post a couple things too since black Friday is coming & all. (Although, I really cant think of ANYTHING!)

**WANT

*want

haha.

**Black "leather" jacket. (not too many pockets/buttons, and preferably no foldover collar if that makes sense). Something like this but doesn't have to be this exactly.

**Warm, fleece pajama set

*Hello Kitty Scrub Top (two pockets, nothing too bright and again doesnt have to be this one)

**Yellow scarf (target)

**a new black wristlet (big enough to fit a camera and an iPhone) haha.

**Plaid scarf, 3.50 at forever, ok. sure

maybe ill add more later, my computer is about to die.

New Moon!

2009-11-12T01:49:00.000-10:00

t-8 days! Im so excited, Im thinking about re-reading new moon one more time before we watch! I also got myself a team Edward shirt to wear...were all wearing shirts right?! yayyy!!!

t-zero days for Vegas...here we go again. GO PACQUIAO! =)

for a little new moon excitement: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=DKpbzaWeDmc...

HOME HEALTH

2009-11-08T10:04:00.000-10:00

I am soooooo tempted to apply to a per diem position as a home health nurse. I've always wanted to try it. Currently I work 36 hours a week, would it be too much to pick up an extra day shift once a week while I already work nights? Or should I just not..........hmmmm, advice anyone???

Life.

2009-11-06T13:50:00.000-10:00

Life is good, cant really complain..

This will be my first official blog from my MacbookPro and I am absolutely loving it! Unfortunately, I havent really had a chance to play with it because I am bombarded with work! I guess thats what happens when you come back from vacation. So far I have worked 2 out of the 6- 12 hours shifts I have scheduled before we leave for Vegas! Ohh, Vegas. I guess its kind of hard to be excited for Vegas when you just came back from a chill as island, MAUI:)

Maui was definitely an experience, and by no means is it comparable to Oahu at all! Same state, but two completely different environments. Maui is beautiful-- full of greens, serene beaches, and nothing higher than a 2story building in most parts of the island. Honestly when I first got there, I was like Oh shit, where are we??? haha, but now I know what the tour books mean when the keep saying "Relax, youre in Maui." Because it really is a place to just relax. The trip ended up being very fun, a very different kind of fun, but fun nonetheless! We watched a sunrise above the clouds on one of the worlds largest dormant volcanoes at like 4am, then afterwards did a 28-mile bike ride down that same volcano. A lot of us felt we were going to eat shit, but we all got the hang of it and it ended up being pretty cool. We went ziplining which was also fun and felt surprisingly very safe! Did a lot of beach hopping of course, shopping, great snorkeling (me & Daze were swimming right next to a turtle!:)), and cliffdiving which for some reason was sooo much scarier than Waimea bay! The Old Lahaina Luau is by far the best luau I have been to--authentic, nice scenery, and yummmy foood! I must have gained like 20lbs eating all the deeeelicious, CARBalicious platters there! yom yom! Big Mamas Fish House takes the cake for the best restaurant on the island, DA Kitchen takes 2nd place! Halloween on Front Street Lahaina was also cool! & Im glad we experienced that because Im sure it is going downhill with all the resistance from the locals in that area. Nightlife gets 2 stars out of 5, although we somehow managed to drink everynight again! hahaha, love my friends.

Lastly, the most memorable experience for me had to be the Road to Hana--the once in a lifetime, most beautiful scenic drive in my life which somehow ended up also being one of the scariest moments of my life!! The road is curvy sometimes one lane with two way traffic, but the scenery was so surreal. I remember sitting on the black sand beach thinking--omg, im so lucky to be here...cant believe Im really here. & I was just soaking it all in....how preettty everything was, how I was sitting at the same spots I was just looking at in the tour books! I loved it. Then came the scary part where we decided to take the prohibited road home while the sun was setting! We ended up driving along unpaved roads, one lane/two way curvy offroads along the cliffs...no street lights,,no reception..nobody on the road..no human in sight...NOTHING!! omg, i was fuckn terrified---a million bad things running in my head (what if there are ghosts, if we pop a tire, wild animals, were going the wrong way and theres no way home, etc). We were driving 2 hours with nothing but the whoooole backside of the island in view ahead of us, pitch black....just straight up scary. hahaha, "fuck it, if i die, i die."

therefore, Road to Hana is once in a lifetime for me and Im glad I was able to just soak in all the beauty of it:) Seven sacred pools was awesooome!

& that pretty much is the trip to Maui in a nutshell for me! I LOOOVE TRAVELING! had a 9-hr layover in Oahu, and walking around I honestly felt like i was JUST there..(i know, I was). But seemed like nothing has changed...at allllll. I still love it and all....but it kinda made me rethink if living there would be the right choice. Maybe being a frequent visitor would be the better option...I dont know what to do with myself!! btw, Dukes has a new rule where each guest can only have a maximum of two shots--i have this WEEEIRD feeling that its because of the ruckus we caused on our last night!! i really think so!

anyways, happy birthday again mama grace!! Cant wait to see you all Saturday!

gut feelings

2009-10-08T12:29:00.000-10:00

Last night I had one if those feelings that something wasn't right with my patient. I remember the last time I felt this way, something really wasn't right and my patient ended up coding and died. So when I felt the kick in my stomach again, I was like "oh! I can't ignore it this time." Just glancing at my patient at start of shift, he looked fine. Blood pressure, alright. Oxygen level, good. A little swollen yes, but he was getting dialysis first thing in the morning. He's talking, actually getting up to the bathroom and inask him how he feels he says "I'm okay jus feeling a little weak." (kick,kickin in my stomach)

3 hrs later, knocked out, snoring. Vital signs all the same. Wake him up a lil cuz I'm
scared haha, And I ask him if he's ok cuz he's snoring louder than usual. He says " yea, kinda having a hard time breathing, can put my head up?" so I do, his oxygen levels perfect but I'm happy cuz I've been looking for a reason to call the doctor!!! it's sucks when you don't know exactly what your gonna say to the doctor in the middle of the night. This is the one of the reasons I don't like night shift--you have to hesitate before calling the doctor. But I call him anyways, tell him the pt is having a hard time breathing. He asks what the o2 sat was, I say 99 (haha), he doesn't think there's a problem (kick kick in my stomach) dammit.

I ask my coworkers to look at him, but nobody really thinks he looks to bad. So I'm like ok, fine--let it go. Then 2 hrs later his BP drops to the 80s. I turn off all the drips that affect his BP...wait an hour to see if it will come up but it never does. Pt still looks the same, jus a lower bp but he feels fine still jus a lil short of breath. i do an EKG--looks the same In comparison. So I calls the dr again. He dismisses my call "oh no that bp is fine, he's been in that range before" he's getting kinda irritated I keep calling him, and I am getting more and more nervous-jus overwhelmed with the feeling that it wasn't right.

Coworkers still think he looks okay, there's sicker patients on the floor. So finally 2 hrs later he's like I'm sorry to bother you but I am just feeling really weak, like I can drink a whole carton of lemon Gatorade & he laughs. His breathing seems more labored but still ok oxygen levels & his lungs sounding a lil noisy. I can't put my finger on what's wrong, but i wanna call the doctor again! hah, for about 20 minutes I was like should I call him? Or no?he was one of those docs who are just asses bc they are. Most cardiologists there are. But i decided fuuuck it, if he yells at me fuuuuck it...gotta cover my ass tho. haha so I call him--with no real point to make to him but just telling him everything I am seeing and assessing with the patient. The doctor decides he's gonna come in--3 am.

Now I'm scared, lol. What if the patients okay and I made the doctor come this early, he's gonna kill me!!!! I started a drip the dr orders to get my patients heart pumpin, his blood pressure went up & he said he could breathe better. I'm like ohhh shit, and the doctors coming! Almost like I wanted him to tell me he felt bad, lol. The doctor came and the patient looks fine!! so I bustbout my charts and show him the vital signs before the drip was started, so te doctor takes him for a study while he's there. Lo and and behold!!!--- the patients previous heart attack had extended all over the inferior part of his heart...!

He came back to my unit with like 8 drips to sustain his bp, a mask to push oxygen, a new dialysis catheter for crrt, a balloon pu
p in his heart. Pretty much so sick, that they had to send another nurse to come help take over because I have not been trained with all those machines he was connected to. The doctor went up to me and grabbed my name badge and said "maricel, you did a good job. Thank you for being persistent in calling me" & began showing me what happened.......finally, the feeling in my stomach went away.

Sorry for the nurse talk...but aside, I came home thinking where the hell do we get those gut feelings from? Who tells us something isn't right..who puts that idea in our heads?! Not just at work it happens, but in life. so my lesson for the day us to trust that gut feeling, cuz most of the time it's right.

WOWIE MAUI :)

2009-09-10T05:06:00.001-10:00

This is going to sound crazy, but I'm going to Maui! October 26-November 2. So far, the officials are jus me, tess, AJ, and Daze. The pendings are Jamie, Matt, and Philbert. And I extend a warm invite to YOU all! Please come!! It will be a lot of fun:) I was kind of hesitant cuz it's halloween weekend, but to my surprise, it is actually a huge deal over there; they call it Halloween in Lahaina. aka Mardi Gras of the Pacific. soooooo, yay!

I am DYING to get out of here. Everything I do now is so old to me..kinda like Ive grown tooo big for my bubble. I cant shake the feeling off either!! I block all my days of work so I can have 4-5 days to just go somewhere...anywhere. Even a little road trip makes me happy. Haha I spend so much money on plane tickets, I might as well just leave! haha. I DONT save my money living at home either! The only thing that stops me from going anywhere is that I dont have enough ICU experience, and I dont want to travel as a med/surg nurse. But if I have to, I will. I just want that experience of moving out, living somewhere else, having the time of my life, and then coming home once I get it all out my system, back to San Diego!

Anyways, sorry. this is all i talk about...cuz really it's all i think about! its pretty bad. I wish I can win the lotto and just do whatever I want, or marry someone rich and do whatever i want.

because of night shift, it is now 8am and i havent slept. crazy crazy crazy.......PnAySoCrZy---my old SN :) cant sleep, bored.

more random thoughts:
-im dying to go to that road runner store to find shoes so my knees dont hurt
-i better get my ass back to the gym
-what should i do for my birthday
-what should i be for halloween?
-i wish I didnt crack my iphone screen
-i like my new bedsheets
-im glad its not hot anymore
-me and philbert sat with ruths family at church!
-happpppy birthday INANG! i miss her
-i miss my family in VA
-hope grace doesnt deliver while Im gone!
-i need new clothes
-i dont want winter to come
-i love reef slippers
-soo not looking forward to three days of work this wknd
-will anyone even read allmy random thoughts??????????????????????

your life does not get better by chance, it gets better by change

2009-08-09T23:56:00.000-10:00

--fortune at Asian Bisto.

so I'm back at work, 1st night of three. Oh boy. Apparently JCAHO surveyors are coming soon, & it's a huge deal..so everything must be textbook perfect, I wish I wasn't working!!

Anyways, when I'm done with three..I'll be heading to Virginia for 5days. Not too much excitement, but should be relaxing. I plan on going to the beach, shopping, washington DC, and shopping. Oh!! & baptism of course! this will probably be a vacation of nonDrinking as well since I'm going with Lynn and she's underage...& my cousins are jus not my age group! I also googles things to do in VA...and found there are golf courses!! lots and lots of golf courses!! hahaa, woohoo! but in any case, I'm hoping this trip will be a little fix for my boredom here in SD. yup, still borred..or more like, wishing for something new!

on Saturday I spent the day with my sisters & Ate Fe going wedding dress shopping!!! :) how fun it is! I can't believe we didn't get to share thi experience with my older sister when she got married! We ended up finding te EXACT dress she cut out of a magazine!! $1600!! I'm so happy for her!!

ok, guess I'll see ya weds for dinner!!

copied from someones profile.

2009-07-28T12:10:00.000-10:00

Be so strong that nothing can disturb your peace of mind. Talk health, happiness and prosperity to every person you meet. Make all your friends feel there is something in them. Look at the sunny side of everything. Think only of the best, work only for the best, and expect only the best. Be as enthusiastic about success of others as you are about your own. Forget the mistakes of the past and press on the greater achievements of the future. Give everyone a smile. Spend so much time improving yourself that you have no time left to criticize others. Be too big for worry and too noble for anger. -Christian D. Larsen

i dont know. i found this to be very very inspirational.

$418

2009-07-27T05:44:00.000-10:00

gah, i didn't wanna book it but i just did. guess im officially going on a trip to VA aug 13-18. i really didnt feel like spending that money on my flight, but whateva. i guess cuz thats more than i paid for my hawaii ticket!! haha :(

yesterday, FINALLY enjoyed a day in sunshine! omg, all i do is sleep through the pretty days! sleep sleep sleep. we dipped in the pool for a little and then headed to crab shack and made a sloppy mess. i dont care tho, it was deeelicious!

diannes birthday was fun! there was quite a list of people who got kicked out, and i crack up at all the stories from that night, haha. i drank something that totally ruined my balance for the night, and i had one of dennis' friends holding up all my body weight that night when i couldnt stand straight! haha! i feel like everyone was hungover yesterday, haha. as for me, i couldnt sleep! i was up till 3pm sunday, took a quick nap, then went to the pool. i was bored on facebook that morning, and matt hilario happened to be on too..so we spontaneously went to the gym that morning! haha i made him take a class with me which was pretty funny!

anyways, love those dollar dvd rental machines. been watching a movie every night. today i watched bridal wars.....oh yea! anyone wanna watch the ugly truth???? lemme know!!

okaaay, better go do something productive!

baby G gettin big!

& I'm back!

2009-07-20T00:57:00.001-10:00

3-5am is when I'm twiddling my fingers thinking of something I can do, so after I'm all facebooked out..here I am!...with nothing to say! Haha.

my sister jus moved into her new house on Olympic & e. Palomar. So hopefully if i ever babysit, we can have baby playdates with our new nieces and graces baby girl!! yay for girls!

what else? i'll be going to VA mid august for a baptism, another godchild baby girl:) should be fun, haven't been there since I was like 7!

Ummm. Hahaa. Feels weird having so much more time on my hands. Prior to the trip I remember I was crazy tying to do eveything and be everywhere! Now, my ICU classes are done...I work 3 times a week. & nothin gong on! Blah.

Let's go swimming! We haven't had summertime activities in SD yet!

Ok I'm done. I literally had to think really hard about what to write tonight!!

Aloha!

2009-07-18T00:49:00.000-10:00

Hi friends! it's been a while, I'm sure you all probably stopped checking this blog!! Anyways, so much has happened these past few months, I have no idea where to begin!

first of all, it's about 4am. I'm currently on my iPhone doing a blog entry at work. I am officially a night nurse. I remember dreading how awful it would be to be awake while everyone else is asleep, but I have come to find out that this is my element! I was always a night person, so I don't miss sleeping early to wake up early & I don't miss how crazy busy it gets in the days! The only thing I don't like is trying to sleep in the middle of a hot summer day with no AC!!

Oh yea, while the thought of my room is in my head. My parents are thinking about leaving Viewpoint:( bitter..sweet. They are currently looking for homes in Bonita/eastlake, so well see how that turns out.

Hawaii was a lot of fun! & even if it was my third time, still eye opening for me. Did lots of things I always wanted to do & made me realize that I don't wanna settle here quite yet. Before o wanted to buy a house here pretty soon, now that idea has gone out the window. I guess it made me realize that there's more to life than my routine life in san Diego..25 yrs, same stuff. so I don't know..maybe it a phase. But since I've been back, I just wanna leave!--go somewhere, see places, meet people. I'm so...bored here!

Now that that's off my chest (haha), I think that's all I really felt the need to express!!!

I miss you friends! ( haven't really talked to u guys for a while) gotta go now, make sure my pts are breathing!!! :)

NEW MOON!

2009-05-31T13:38:00.001-10:00

Life..is too busy to write about in a blog!! (for now)

tonight.
be back later!

WHERE HAVE THE DAYS GONE?

2009-05-11T20:30:00.000-10:00

Time has been passing sooo incredibly fast these past couple of weeks..I kind of dont like it. I wish it would slow down a little!

work. this program is going by soo fast. i actually have a big hemodynamics test tomorrow but my mind is seriously elsewhere, i cant even think about it. my schedule suucks ass (i think)--i dont like never having an entire weekend off, but guess Ill suck it up. cant say i quite love the icu yet either--maybe its cuz 1)im just not as comfortable and confident as before 2)i feel like the "novice" or not the real nurse because im working under my preceptor(duh, thats what theyre supposed to do, i know..jus makes me feel like a baby) 3)butt i AM the baby because I am the YOUNGEST person down there...my coworkers have children OLDER than me!

fun. a lil too much of it. i said after vegas i would just chill until hawaii...but NOPE didnt happen. but attention, attention---NO CAPTAIN=no blackouts.....i hate captain morgan! (VERY TRUE "RULE")

fitness. had a VERY rude awakening looking at my calender. i swear hawaii was 6 months away. today is the beginning of my motivation! i cant believe all this time has passed and I havent stayed focused. btw, i tried yoga with Kat for my first time...that was funny..but oddly, refreshing. I think Ill try it again. I cant be lazy anymore "there's no time...theres never anytime! im soo excited....im sooo excited...im soooo scared!" (about me being a piggy at hawaii) AHHHHHHH!

friendssss. jamie-i bought that saame bathing suit but with the yellow bottom in the picture u posted too! hahaa. Ruth-I never get to see you cuz we work opposite days or something! Dianne-Andrews party, muahahaha, good times. Grace-I have a strong feeling its a girrrlll....

just like my NIECE

sorrrry...just haaddddd to throw her in:)

lets all have dinner....at souplantation!!!! hahaha.....

status:determined

ps. im hyper...for some reason.

PACQUIAO

2009-05-07T13:00:00.000-10:00

"it's nothing personal, im just doing my job" haha, pacquiao has done it again.

FINALLY time to reeally relax...

Vegas was a lotta fun:)

friday. Me and Jamie headed straight after work to the airport to find our flight was a little delayed. So we sat down, and got freee dranks from these old men who were not creepy, just good company while waiting for our flight. hahaa. we mostly chatted for the free drinks tho.

Arrived in Vegas...tired!! my eyes were red all night, not cuz i was drunk or cuz the camera sucks..but reeally cuz i was exhausted. mike and carla joined us for the night at a new club called XS at Encore..nice club! Afterwards, we ate McDonalds....and considered going to Prive at 3am but instead called it a night.

saturDAY. Pravin had hook ups at the M resort...free cabana and dranks. boob jobs and skin cancer all around :P haha..it was really fun and "vegas-y" as we called it....in the "sexy pool" hahah.

PACQUIAO FIGHT. at Mandalay Bay was SHORT...but FUN!! Pacquiao is the shiiiiiiiit. We were literally at the closed circuit for like 15 minutes! hahaa...and we all rocked the filipino flags on our neck..that was fun.
Stayed out til 530am! omg..i was getting soo "tampo" cuz I was so tired..hahaa...and HUNGRY! We were all brain dead and retarded sunday morning eating at 24-hr pho...so we drove home after.........

a loooong...wiiiinddyyy...nauseating.....drive. hahaha.

came back to reality...two 12 hour shifts...8 hour class. and today I REST!!!! Alleleuia!

APRIL

2009-04-16T17:09:00.000-10:00

helllooooO! long time, no blog. apparently, same goes for everyone else!

cannot believe it's already the middle of april. been doing a lot of adjusting to my new schedule--class twice a week, work twice a week. my preceptor only works sunday-monday, so i have a sun-mon-tues-fri schedule, which kind of sucks cuz i never really get a full weekend off. like i had anticipated, i feel like a new grad rn retard who doesnt know anything. i find myself scared to do things that i was never scared of doing on the floor, and doubting things that i know i know. i am sure it will come to me in time, but for now it's a lot of...learning and feeling like a dumb ass--to put it simply. haha! fortunately, i have a really smart yet really bubbbbly preceptor--i think they did a great job matching our personalities:) so that is the work aspect.

this past weekend, i attended the easter vigil mass and i was jazzys ninang for her re-baptism into the catholic church and holy communion. whattta looooong mass! i was at church from 630-1130p!! i couldn't belieeeve it! i spent easter sunday at work, but afterwards i headed to ate fes for a lil gathering where we all chilled by a fire in the backyard and talked..that was nice.

me--you guys have probably noticed that white moo-tah looking thing by my eye that i thought would need surgical removal. anywayys, today it popped and a little white hard thing came out! lol..too much info, but i was soo happy for this event today =) no more annoying white thing by my eye when i look in the mirror..for now.

lastly, i asked my manager if i could have may1-3 off and miraculously she said YES! sooo, i am going to VEGAS! sooo, sooo, soooooooooooo excited=) ive always wanted to go on a pacquaio fight weekend! it will be me, jamie, carla, daze, kimt, kimg, and joanne. yippeeee:) and any of you guys if you can go! it should be lotsa fun. bc of the $$$ we are planning on flying up and driving home cuz it is very costly for flights!

bc of jamie, i have a huge obsession for japanese fashion magazines and i have been oogly-googly eyed over all the clothes and shoes........i wanna go shoppping!! so if anyone wants to plan a shopping trip with me, let's do it!! i want shooes! accessories! everything!

anyways this is soo long. i have a pulmonary test to study for. i will leave you with pictures at bar 923, where we had a little high school reunion...talking about how our 10-year is in 3 years! omg. we wanna arrive in helicopters....lol.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY LYNN

2009-04-05T19:20:00.000-10:00

Lynn had her 20th birthday party this weekend at our house. If you came, I probably wouldn't have remembered (sorry Jamie). & if you were there long enough, you probably would have been wasted! I cannot drink like this when we go to Hawaii; otherwise Im just a non-functional waste of life the next day :X PGphotography (philberrt) covered the entire night, lol.

omg, back to another week of work. i keep forgetting i have to studyy...

PI08/homecoming

2009-04-02T18:02:00.000-10:00

I decided when I didnt have anything to interesting to blog about, that I would blog to you about random days of my verrry long Philippines trip, that I never really shared pictures or stories with you guys about!

Today, Ill talk about our first few days there...

After a 16-hour flight, we finally got to the city of Malolos, Bulacan..the province where my dad grew up. My dad was the "Hermano Mayor" that year, which pretty much means you sponsor (aka PAY for) the city's annual fiesta for their patron saint--theirs being St. Francis of Assisi. So as we're driving down the road, the sights and smells bring back old memories, but then we pull up into a large driveway with green banners--it was my Dads newly remodeled house! It's no wonder he wants to retire there- the place is huuge, air-conditioned, servants, and everybody there respects him so much more (there were even banners).

the house was already decorated with all this when we came

the backyard was really nice, and theres my sister preggy--we wanted to see how much she would grow while we were there

PESOS!

Afterwards, we headed to visit TATANG! He passed away in 1999, but I havent been there since so it was nice to fiinally visit him & of course the palengki (sp??)

their graves are above the ground.

having fun on our first tricycle ride to the palengki (sp?) :)

Cant you just smellll the stinkiness?!! So this wraps up day 1 & 2 in the homeland!

Anyways, my fever has finally stopped today. At one point, I actually was really scared that I had meningitis because of the symptoms I was having. I began to develop a very stiff neck, a dry cough, and what felt like too much achy pressure in my head...on top of the high fevers and chills. I was almost tempted to go an urgent care, but Im retarded and like to diagnose myself...plus, I was actually really scared to find out if I had that bc people actually die from that. I stopped the dayquil and switched to Motrin..and voila! Still dont have the energy to go to the gym and all that, slowly but surely. I am for sure not refusing the flu vaccine like I did this year for the simple fact that I didnt want to get a shot, hahaa. I really never, ever wanna go through that again (although i know there are worst things in life). So now I am in recovery mode-- changed my toothbrush and sheets! I feel human again.

Saturday is Lynns bday bbq, if you guys can attend later in the afternoon. It'll be fun :) I think she'll have tacos and burgers + drinks, so maybe it can be destination#1 for that night?

K, time to rest in bed. gotta conference early in the morning...what a long blog.

know the FACTS about the flu

2009-03-30T17:45:00.000-10:00

Fever
Aches
Chills
Tiredness
Sudden symptoms

I think I have the flu! :(

Woke up at 3am,shaking from being Soo cold but my temp being so high :( what better timing..in class, the dayquil would wear off about every 3-4hrs..and I'd be shaking/chills. I've been sick before but never THIS sick :( I'd pick a runny nose and cough anyday.

currently at 103.1.. wish I had a boyfriend for times like these, haha. Anywyas, I'm back in nursing school!

PS. i think my skin is as hot as jacobs. :X

FOREVER 21?

2009-03-29T19:15:00.000-10:00

not so much.

this weekend, i realized the hard way what my body can and cannot handle anymore. i never put much thought into the fact that were not THAT young anymore, it's kinda sad. gone are the days of consuming multiple bottle of crown royale; instead, it's all about the mental notes now baby!

speaking of, friday i broke several of these mental notes. to fill you in, last year me and jamie realized that we were having way too many drunken nights so we discovered that when you are sober and consciously think of rules you have preset for yourself prior to drinking, you will have a good night! so after many nights of analyzing our actions and how to fix them, we've been much better! HOWEVER, friday i broke a couple: 1)take a nap before you go out if youre tired, 2) dont go out hungry, 3)dont drink more than 2 long islands if you have been pre-drinking. because from past experience, you will get drunk! hahaa, and indeed i did.

i had spent the entire saturday (which was beautiful btw), sick in bed. i was healed by twilight (says dianne) so i was able to go out in the night. random bar hopping with christian and dianne, fun fun! and i woke up sunday feeling achy, fatigue, coughing--jus BAD. dinner at min sok chon was...cold. haha, and nice to hang out for a lil. the whole time i remember feeling cold and sicker, and wanting to curl up in a warm bed.

and here i am!! very aware that i cant keep taking my health for granted. this week was pretty UNhealthy--eating out, drinking, and spending money like a rockstar. ill probably do a healthy start once im feeling better. tomorrow is back to work for my first day in icu training :( i feel like im going back to school again. ill let you guys know how that goes.

time to pop some nyquil & maybe watch twilight since apparently it heals, hahaa. crazy girls.

parting picture of my niece...again! the polka dot cutie pie :)

SORE

2009-03-25T23:15:00.000-10:00

snowboarding. Tuesday, very spontaneously went boarding with my coworker, Jeff at Mountain High. Conditions: sunny & beautiful, but pretty icy! Icy= me falling forward on my knees and arms grip, as well as a lot of leg power to keep up. I woke up really sore!

indian foodtried it for my first time today with grace and Philbert. It was yummy..but shortly therafter, we found ourselves at the new jollibee/chowking with full on meals like we didn't just eat at a buffet. All the while, our conversation has been about weight loss, hahaa. oink. Oink.

future plans hiking mañana with Philbert in the morning if u wanna! Vegas roadtrip? Just party in Sd? Buy a house?? hahaa.

I love this--not having a job. I looove it.

TWILIGHT:D

2009-03-23T05:57:00.000-10:00

"Twilight DVD Release Weekend" as Dianne called it, turned out to be pretty fun:)

friday. My co-workers threw a baby shower/farewell party for me and a couple other of my coworkers. We are not the only ones who drink at baby showers! Turned into a crazy little party, a good way to part from them :( My last day on the unit was a disaster-- they actually floated me to another unit where I was soo busy that I felt no sense of sadness as I put my stethescope and everything out of my locker into a bag. I will definitely miss some of the patients though. We had a lot of "frequent fliers" who came back frequently for chemotherapy, and Ive become close to a lot of them..but I will mostly miss my young & crazy coworkers. No other group of nurses on one floor could probably ever compare to them.

saturday. The Spring Break/Twilight party was fun. We didn't get our dose of sunshine because we were stuck inside watching Twilight--which is AWESOME in Blu-Ray. I sooo want a Blu-ray player. It was fun watching with Dianne who knew fun facts about the movie! The food was YUM, the people were fun/funnnyy, and the movie was grreat! I had a good time. Afterwards, we headed to U31 for a lil action and ended the night from there.

sunday. The rain took away from our tourist sundays. Spent the morning watching the bonuse features and deleted scenes of Twilight. Then we went to Plaza, which for some reason was too crazy for me. Afterwards, we all headed to Ate Fe's where we cooked tacos......and WATCHED TWILIGHT!! hahaha. My family thinks I'm crazy, but I told them last night that Dianne is crazier..and there are other girls in this world who hyperventilate in line at blockbuster because theyre so excited for their copy. hahaa. The boys watching (&I noticed most guys are just haaters cuz they wish they were like Edward, haha) kept making comments during the movie like:

"Good thing Edwards a vampire, cuz he's really scrawny and small"

"Oh, I thinks he's a vampire, so let me go take him to the middle of the woods to ask him because thats safe"

"the force it would take him to jump from that tree to the other, would have blown her off of his back, haha"

Haha, grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr.

& it is Monday morning. Absolutely NO PLANS on my days off, how did I let this happen?!

MTB4

2009-03-16T20:12:00.000-10:00

was watching the episode right now. had some commentary:

1) Q is seriously annoying, gave me high BP at the way he acts.
2) what in the world are dawn & aundrea still doing on the show? they are jus like housekeepers now
3) all you see aundrea doing is eat eat eat eat eat.
4) Donny Klang, who?!
5) how come they don't have money again?!

ay ya yayy..this show has lost its magic. way too much drama than i think we should see.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY PAPIC

2009-03-15T18:46:00.000-10:00

Today, my older sister turned 28. And again, I have spent another exhausting, yet wonderful Sunday being a tourist in SD. Today, we had lunch at Onamis--and actually, lunch there sucks! No lobster or crab legs, my favorite! And a whole bunch of food that would taste delicious with rice, but I have given that up for Lent :(

Afterwards, we went to Point Loma and ended up at the Cabrillo National Monument. While I was there, I realized a) Why havent I been here before? & b) who the F*** is Cabrillo?! muahahaa. Horrible. I googled it while I was there cuz my sisters didnt know either :X Prettttyy views of SD, too lazy to upload the pics now though. I must say I am enjoying this tourist stuff though!

Here's a parting picture, cuz I like blogs with pictures. Less than a year ago seems so long ago:

do you guys remember this night? you would have found me in downtown all dressed up & unconscious :X never againn.....hahaha.

TACO TUESDAY

2009-03-11T10:26:00.000-10:00

Yesterday, we headed to PB for taco Tuesday & myy has both the crowd and scene changed from the good old days! Is it me, or did that totally feel like we were at Decos?!

"didn't you know not to where slippers to the club?" -i quote the bigger, but prolly muuch younger than me "N" chick.

She's lucky she's ghetto!! hahaa, because first of all..when did this place become a club?!! & second of all, she was probably born in 1988--all excited to go to the club in her high ass silver heels and bling.. at PB?! I have a feeling that when it gets warmer tho,allthe good people will start to come back around..? maybe?

Haha, so that was my Tuesday night on top of bringing Inang into the ER for chest pain. Poor lil Inang is here on the telemetry floor for cardiac workup and monitoring. She's ok though. I'm at the hospital booorrred outta my mind,& I am itching to go shopping!

Anyways, I've got 5 days left of work on my unit. I always wanted this, & now that it's so close, I've realized that I am seriously going to miss that comfortable feeling of going to work competent and sure of what I'm doing. It's back to those days of nervousness & insecurity--err, I hate that. But before I worry about all that, I have a spring break too (march18-30--same as dianne), yay!

SD<3

2009-03-09T20:25:00.000-10:00

I think since all of us have lived here our entiire lives, we take a lot of San Diego for granted. On Sunday, I got cancelled from work (omg, the ONE time I actually stay home and sleep early, grr) so we took out my Aunt & Uncle since they only have a couple weeks left in SD.

So, we went to La Jolla Cove and walked around! How come I felt like a tourist though?? I seriously havent done it before! I remember going to take yearbook pictures for letterettes, but other than that..nope! Anyways, it was a perfect day! Started out with brunch at a small, cute outdoor restaurant called WhiskNLadle. All nine of us had something similar to sandwich/burger & fries, but thee grand total was: 200 bucks! $200 for some cheeseburgers?!!!!! Haha, seriously--unfortunately, the tab was on me :( I knew I shoulda picked InNout!!!!

Then we decided to walk it off. We ended up at the cave at La Jolla. Neverrr knew of it! I was just as tourist-y as my aunt and uncle! hahah. Come this summer, I think we should kayak there...looks like fun.

Then we spent the rest of the afternoon chillin in the park.

Annnd, this is my niece. She has groown soo big and soo cute. I think she looks A LOT more mexican now. Shes adorable!!!

I hope someone can have a girl :) btw, where have my friends been??!!!!!

THE WEEKEND

2009-02-23T19:55:00.000-10:00

Philbert & Jerards Bday was fun. It just sucks that for some reason, I always have to go home early cuz of work!! Happy Birthday boys!

After accidently taking a very cool picture of Rob and his friends that night, my drunken mind was inspired to take loootts of pictures that night.. and I did. I was looking at them in my camera like usual, then decided i might as well actuallly post them (which I am usually very bad at!) I did! and I decided that I will stop being lazy and post my pictures like everyone else when I take any. I guess I got used to Philbert and/or Jamie being the photographer of the night. haha, so check it out: picasaweb.google.com/itsmaricel.

Today, I took kickboxing, visited my niece..and seriously laid in bed, finishing the last of the Twilight Saga--all 756 pages of Breaking Dawn. & now I have been on the computer for the most I have been in aages, updating on myspace/picasa/blogger/aim..so weird. I still wanna laptop, btw. I am probably the oonly person in their 20's who doesnt own one of those things, how lame!

Here's a snippet of a conversation with my fellow Twilight fan, Dianne:

howdee from dee: u watched twilight!!

howdee from dee: yay

imnotboredNOT: hahaa yup!!

imnotboredNOT: i actually finished the last book today

howdee from dee: cool. r u hooked now too?

imnotboredNOT: read it..all day, literally.

imnotboredNOT: hahaha yup!.

imnotboredNOT: kind of obsessed actually

howdee from dee: yay! me toooo

howdee from dee: but only secretly

imnotboredNOT: lol

imnotboredNOT: christian will get jealous of edward.

imnotboredNOT: hahahaha

howdee from dee: he does

imnotboredNOT: lol!

howdee from dee: that's why i have to keep it secret

imnotboredNOT: muahahahah!!!

imnotboredNOT: i wish i can post THIS on my blog

howdee from dee: but i kinda slipped while watching the oscars

imnotboredNOT: hhahaha...

howdee from dee: we were at the kitchen table and i ran to the tv when he was presenting

imnotboredNOT: hahahaha!!

howdee from dee: in front of his whole family actually

howdee from dee: it was dinner time

imnotboredNOT: omg

howdee from dee: hahaha

imnotboredNOT: thats not kinda slipping

imnotboredNOT: thats going out of your way

howdee from dee: lol

imnotboredNOT: lol

howdee from dee: i like the pics u posted. have u seen the video?

howdee from dee: from that photo shoot. it's really cute

howdee from dee: i reallly want them to get together in real life

howdee from dee: k... it's sad that finding out u like twilight too is the most exciting part of my day

imnotboredNOT: i knoow i saw it..

imnotboredNOT: doesnt she have a bf?

imnotboredNOT: hahaha!

howdee from dee: yeah

imnotboredNOT: i keep telling jamie to start reading it

howdee from dee: she should

imnotboredNOT: (as if she doesnt have enough school work)

imnotboredNOT: hahah

howdee from dee: then we can go crazy when new moon comes out in nov

imnotboredNOT: hahah!

howdee from dee: and eclipse in june

imnotboredNOT: did you pre order the dvd

imnotboredNOT: haaha my coworker did.

howdee from dee: no i wanted to, but christian was telling me that it's not gonna sell out

imnotboredNOT: i was thinking about it

imnotboredNOT: it comes with like something free.

howdee from dee: i'm also kinda hoping christian will get it for me.. but since he already got the tswift tickets, maybe he's not

howdee from dee: i should pre-order it!

howdee from dee: the 2 disc special from borders right?

imnotboredNOT: yeah!

imnotboredNOT: hahaa

yes, ladies & gentlemen..THAT good.

SAVED BY THE BELL

2009-02-19T06:30:00.000-10:00

...gooes to hawaii!

I miss this. Waking up early, watching tv shows like saved by the bell! I feel like Im on vacation at Bell Jr. High! Even greater that Zack and the posse head to hawaii, had me googling all sorts of things for the trip while watching. (Pls. see hawaiikids site, hah)

I fell asleep from 7p-7am this morning! 12 hours of uninterupted sleep!! Life is good.

"SPRING MUST-HAVES"

2009-02-15T20:26:00.000-10:00

Apparently, the top 6 must-haves this spring include:

1)Plaid Shirts

2)Knit Dresses

3)V-neck tees

4)Colored Denim

5)Bright Handbags

6)&High waisted shorts/shirts

I can really appreciate the rainy days but I guess I am kinda over the winter weather, wishing the sun would stay up a lil longer. Time for "spring fashion"..hahaha--ummm, except I dont know about the colored denim.

Speaking of weather...in denial of any of us "getting old," I've decided the reason I get so sleepy when I go out is because it's cold! Like really, seems like everytime I'm out, the idea of sleeping in a warm bed tends to linger in the back of my mind. & I have noticed that I'm just not as exciting when I go out. No dancing, no making out, no falling down. LOL, err, I guess it's a good thing haha. It's more like me driving seperately so I can go home early, me falling asleep somewhere on a couch, me yawning all night, etc. In conclusion, I am not getting old..it's just cold! (I dont know why I had to justify that to myself)

Went to Target the other day--bathing suits are selling now! I get super excited thinking about the trip..except the whole $35 check-in luggage fee! I will also be having a "10-day spring break" towards the end of March before I start ICU training, so I want to do a lil trip maybe to San Francisco for a lil getaway? Hopefully.

With that said, I keep telling myself to save your money, biatch. But I'm not very good at it, although much better. MINT.com---wonderful site if you guys haven't used it yet. You pretty much register all your accounts (bank, credit cards, IRAs, loans, etc), and the website organizes your debt vs. assets, allowing you to take a "financial picture" of yourself, per se. You can set monthly limits on your spending in different categories like shopping/gas/entertainment, and it tracks where you're spending your money and warns you if you're overspending. Also, it emails you when bill payments are coming up, suggests options of saving your money, and even better...there's an iPhone app for it :)

ANYWAAAAAAYS, enough babble for the day. Time to watch TBS movies. HAPPY BIRTHDAY to my DAD (tomorrow). Even with all the differences we've had in the past, I still love you! & Happy birthday PHILBERT (tues)...all I gotta say is: you better show up on Saturday!

ICU

2009-02-10T08:53:00.000-10:00

heeeeeeeeeeeeeere i come :)

yipeeeee, my interview went well so i will officially be an ICU RN in training starting this march. I am very excited to be advancing my career in this direction, but the only problem is I don't know what to do next. Probably, it would be to go back to school, but I haven't found something I'm really passionate about yet so I wouldnt know what to specialize in. But anyways, I will just worry about the near future for now. I will also be joining my night shift people!! Another YAY for differential, maybe then I can afford a house/car payment =D But before I switch to nights (in July) I have to go through an intense training program, which pretty much equals me going back to school :( Buuutttt, I did ask the managers if Im clear to go to Hawaii...and Im CLEARED =) YAYY! So the classes and "finals" end June 16, and literally we will be heading to Hawaii the day after. I am going to feel soooo relieved and happy!!!

Anyways, my "check engine" light turned on again...for the THIRD time. What is reeally going on here?! I have seriously been considering buying a BMW5series..but I think Ill wait for the 2010. Not really that I NEED a new car so much, I just feel that with as much as I work..and as HARD as I work, I deserve to have something nice for myself..other than a nice tv. As nice (er hehe) as it is to help my parents financially, I feel like I have to make some kind of financial move to get away from my commitment to them..because sometimes, it really is a lot. So maybe..hopefully..wishfully..I can move out by 25. TWENTY-FIVE---we are getting soooo old.

Anyways, gotta get back to my day. Plans include: 24Lift, visit Giselle, dinner & a movie! yay! catch ya later.

OBSESSION

2009-02-03T15:10:00.001-10:00

I have really got it bad..for the Twilight series. For the past week, I would have to admit that reading has taken over much of my life. I would read through phone calls, through my entire day offs, through a Saturday night on my weekend off!, etc. It came to the point where I would put the book down to knock out, and actually dream the story in my head as if I were the main character! Hahaa. Yup. Baad, i know. I actually have one more of the series to read, and Im planning on reading it muuch slower than I have the rest..because I really don't want the story to end :( I <3 Edward Cullen (hey, so does Dianne ok?!)

In other news, but AWESOME NEWS!!!...HAWAII IS BOOKED! June 17-28, it's on! Nine people officially on the roster, but maybe more tba. I am sooo excited because:
1)We have NEVER been able to plan a trip, esp. one this big, in the entire 12-13 yrs we've all known each other,
2)I think were doing a lot of things that I have never had the chance to do at Hawaii yet (Im definitely parasailing and cliffdiving),
3)the possibilities are endless! and were gonna have soo much fun!!!

My motivation to go to the gym is back! (It's the one thing Ive grown very conscious of lately(unfortunately)) cuz I really dont want to be all insecure at Hawaii about taking pictures, haha! Made me all excited thinking of the plane ride drinking mai tais, and hitting up the bars on the beach as soon as we arrive! Ohh..the possibilities! Makes me excited. The trip is gonna be here before we even know it :)

TWILIGHT

2009-01-27T20:13:00.000-10:00

"About three things I was absolutely positive.

First, Edward was a vampire.

Second, there was a part of him-
And I didn't know how dominant that part might be-
That thirsted for my blood.

And third, I was unconditionally and irrevocably in love with him."

Ahh! Watched the movie after reading the book (finally!), & I too have fell in love with Edward Cullen 8) As expected, the book was a lot better than the movie..but it's all good!

I feel like all I do is go to work & gym..but why do I feel like I never have enough time in my days?? I work too much!!

Giselle Marie Guzman

2009-01-22T20:29:00.001-10:00

She's here & she is ohhh soooo cuuute:)

INAUGURATION DAY!

2009-01-20T17:49:00.000-10:00

P.S. MY SISTER'S WATER BROKE!!!!!

GREAT WEEKEND:)

2009-01-18T21:32:00.000-10:00

I seriously havent had a great weekend like this in a long time. Usually my weekends off consist of drinking, going out, being hungover, and then doing whatever in between.

My weekend started out on FRIDAY: I went to the John Legend concert at the UCSD Rimac Arena. I do not remember the last time I went to a concert, and then I remembered why I/we used to go all the time! It's so much fun just enjoying good music and chillin. I think I will be on the lookout for more good artists coming to town. The best part of the concert would have to be the end when John Legend jumped out into the audience...and walked allll the way to the back...and somehown he managed to shake MY hand!! John Legend shooook myyyy handd!!! hahahaa, i was soooo excited. I didnt wanna wash my hands, but unfortunately I had to (dammit). Meanwhile, while John Legend and Estelle had the afterparty at Stingaree, Bobby Valentino was having his own at Belo! & The Dream is at On Broadway tonight!! I love them all!

SATURDAY: After somehow getting dropped off at 4am, I went SNOWBOARDING! Me, Carla, Amie, Mike, Phil, Philbert, & Shawn. Carla rented a van out, picked us all up around 10, and off we went for a fun-filled day! The drive to bear wasnt bad at all. We all linked our Nintendo DS and played Mario Party & of course lots of picture taking.

a beautiful day at Snow Summit

gearing up and exciited:)

me & Amie...coold.

dragging philberts ass up the lifts with no idea how to snowboard "sink or swim" lol.

I think I wanna go one more time at least this season. Afterwards, we made our way down the freeway to..BANANA BAY! mmm. As always, had my Shrimp Anchovy Fried Rice + tom yum soup. On the ride home we were all nice, full, warm, cozy...and ready to KNOCK OUT! that was awesome.

SUNDAY: I was suppooosed to go hiking at Torrey Pines with Sheena, Daze, and Philbert. Instead I had to make it to my Moms bday dinner @ Onamis. YUM! Afterwards we all headed to the theatre to watch Marley&Me. That movie was soooo sad, my whole family cried!..even my dad. Haha. I hope we can plan another hiking adventure, cuz Ive been realllly wanting to do that in SD.

So that was my weekend off. My work schedule this week is pretty much everyday except Thursday. Have I ever mentioned how unhappy I am at my current job?? Well, that calls for a completely different blog, so Ill leave it at that. I met with the ICU manager the other day, and starting this March, I will officially be starting my ICU orientation/precepting. Sooo excited.

Thats enough news for the day, I think. Back to reading TWILIGHT. Im determined to finish this book and watch the movie before its cut from the theatres. Time is running out. hurry, hurrry....I think Im becoming a FANPIRE :)

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JESUS!

2008-12-25T14:50:00.000-10:00

merry christmas, happy holidays!!!! the following is a bulleted format of my past few days:

My Christmas eve:
--WORK!
--Stung by a bee!!!!!!!!!
--MASS
--Dinner with the family
--Presents!!

My Christmas day so far....:
--WORK!!
--Coworkers dad died :(
--Code BLUE at work (again on Christmas day, like last year)
--Patient died :(
--Rain
--Home, kinda sad about the days events.

Pending:
--Dinner at Ate Fe's
--More presents :)

Tired of:
--Work

Wishes:
--I could go snowboarding tomorrow.
--I had new years day off.

But still: happy :) yay for being with family & friends.

REFLECTIONS OF 2008

2008-12-21T17:29:00.000-10:00

I'm baack :)

..in time for the holidays and the new year. wow, time flies!! Anyways, I was looking at some of my old posts, and came across my new years resolutions last year! Shall we reflect?

1. Pay off my credit card balances this year, then really start to save & budget my money--credit card balances now less than 1000 :) now, time to save, yay!

2. Be more productive and try new things--I traveled a lot, I would have to say goal met..but I do need to try new things.

3. Meet new people/friends!--ummmm, no. haha.

4. Career advancement-this year I have been chemotherapy certified, ACLS trained, and charge. wow..next is the ICU.

5. GYM/physical activity at least 4 times a week--cuz I am fat. Umm, this would be a HELL NO. actually got fatter, im so sad. new year, new year.

6. Fewer drunken nights I can't remember!--i would have to say better because of all the rules we made, but definitely room for improvement!

7. Stop beating around the bush--this pretty much means break up with hawaii boy =T haha, this one makes me laugh, especially thinking about my recent bday :O

8. Inform myself-- still need to work on this one.

9. Be Young--travel, shop, have funnnnnn! Check!!!!!!!!!!

That was fun! haha. Im stuck at home. Getting my car tomorrow hopefully, and it better run smooth for 2000 buck$$. I knew I should have just got a new car. Oh well! I bought these new deep purple sheets for my room, I am loving it! makes me wanna move out more. anyways, back to bed&tv. lets go chargers!!!!!

off day

2008-03-24T23:09:00.000-10:00

Today I woke up on the wrong side of the bed, literally.

It has been such an off day. I guess mostly a recovery from the past week. Viva las vegas! Haha, I have been there more than enough these past couple months, I think I need to let myself miss it again before I get excited about going there again! As far as the last trip went, it was for business but a couple of us turned it into a party. It was a good way to put aside our shift differences and get along for once!! The nursing symposium was just OK. We were the yougest nurses there and the topics were all about stuff we jus learned in nursing school, like a review for the old, dusty nurses..haha. So sadly we ditched more than half the classes there!

As soon as I got back I had two 12hr shifts in which I was so insanely busy it made me stop and think to myself "wow, did I really get my degree to be working this HARD?!!" I know I don't want to be doing this type of floor nursing forever. Yesterday, I changed like 3 diapers an hour and my back was cramped up. When I got home I showered, curled up in a fetal position, and thought to myself "damn." haha, if it weren't for the moments when you feel like you really made a difference in a patients life, I don't know where my motivation would be.

So that brings me to my monday, where I woke up at 12, ate, dressed in my gym clothes with the intention of going... But instead completely knock out!! What a day...I literally did NOTHING productive! I guess I needed it. It felt good to charge up again...it was very much needed!!!!

like rev run

2008-03-11T07:47:00.000-10:00

I'm typing an entry on my phone like rev run... Except I am on the shitter, not a lovely bubbbly bath.

Anyways, I thought I'd start updating this thing a little more especialy since I don't really talk to anybody regularly nowadays. I thought dinner was cool yesterday, we should start doing those routinely again!

Its crazy that everyone is growing up. I am happy and excited for everyone making big decisions and strides in life :)

I forget how old we are sometimes, that were actuallly at that age where it's time to start settling down.. Or at least start thinking about it! But one day I laid in bed for a couple hours, & at that time I realized how different my life is compared to a lot of my friends. I know I've mentioned it to a couple of you guys.. But, I feel like I'm on such an entirely different page than everyone else. For starters, I'm pretty much the only one not in a longterm serious relationship. Never was. & to be quite honest, probably don't think I ever will be unless it be with the man I think I wanna marry..is that crazy?? I've developed this ridiculous, yet permanent adjusment to being single that anything else just feels weird to me. do I have problems? Hmmm, maybe. Haha

Which leads me to my next issue.. Does anyone have some benadryl???! ... Cuz I have been itching for change!! Haha. I don't if its that I've been getting bore with myself.. But lately I've been having this feeling knock on my door a couple times. I can't explain it, but I feel like I could have so much more potential if I moved out of San diego.. Not permanently, but maybe for something like...Grad school? At first it was just an innocent thought.. But I am taking it more and more into serious consideration. At first my sister said to to somewhere crazy like NYU but I am thinking more along SF, where they have pretty good nursing programs as is. They require 1yr BSN experience preferred, so if anything that would happen next year. & well, a lot of things can happen in a year.. So well see if I really get the balls to walk away from my comfort zone and just do it!!

Oh, life is fast. Scary. Short.... lets jus make the best of it!

2-0-0-8

2008-01-06T12:36:00.000-10:00

A little late, but HAPPY NEW YEAR!!! I thought would log on here and type out my new years resolutions this year cuz I feel like I have a lot!!

1. Pay off my credit card balances this year, then really start to save & budget my money-- So far I have been able to pay off half my balances, I started a retirement plan but need to educate myself on investing?!!, & have saved a little but not enough. I kind of have been throwing my money around, haha, so I think I'll start balancing. According to Jamie's dad, $50k is a "good" down payment for buying a home. Wow, I'm thinking I'll be moved out by 25.
2. Be more productive and try new things--For example, not laying in bed all day. Going out and trying new things. Doing things like before (i.e. watching concerts, random road trips, etc).
3. Meet new people/friends!--since all you guys have boyfriends, haha--jk!
4. Career advancement--new certifications? and hopefully end up at mercy sd by the end of this year where I should have started in the first place, oh weell!
5. GYM/physical activity at least 4 times a week--cuz I am fat. Haha.
6. Fewer drunken nights I can't remember!--self explanatory! The NYE trick worked (pre drink, bring 20 bucks, and leave the card at home, haha!)
7. Stop beating around the bush--this pretty much means break up with hawaii boy =T I like him, he's cool, but I dont want no boyfriend like that.
8. Inform myself-- By this I mean about everything in general. Politics, News, learning celebrities names haha, and definitely fashion ( hahaha).
9. Be Young--travel, shop, have funnnnnn!

I looked at my resolution list from last year, how horrible! hahaha, anyways cheers to a new year!!

deeeeear santa,

2007-12-01T20:56:00.000-10:00

sorry for posting so late, I have work all weekend, but right now I'm laying in bed tired but still awake.

--Cool cover (not case) for my Nintendo DS (i.e.: Purple, Simple, not gay, not too childish?)
--A gray (preferably dark gray) purse (casual, one you can dress up or down) sorry, i have no idea where.
--A new wallet as always =) gucci pls. Jk, i tend to like billabong/oneill/volcom wallets the most.
--cant go wrong with pajamas! waaaarm ones please!
--warm fuzzy-soft body pillow cover..i saw one at target. either purple/gray/brown
--a cool painting/picture to put at the head of my bed..that goes with the scheme of my room.

to be continued tomorrow..i'm sleepy.

NEW STUFF!!

At the Hurley Outlet in San Ysidro: (ask philbert)
--gray/black hurley scarf
--purple/blue/brown striped beanie
--any thermals there

**no wallet..i think i am going to invest in a coach wallet i fell in love with**

Snowboard shop @ Fashion (Backhouse??):
--Brown Volcom Thermal
--Brown Roxy warm fuzzy hoodie zip-up (covers mouth when zipped up)

Charlotte Russe:
--Hello Kitty towel robe (like a towel, but a robe...its white...dont know how else to explain it i saw it at fashion valley)

--any cute thermals from pacsun...that you could actually picture me wearing
--any cute snowboarding gear/accessories (thermals/gloves/beanies/etc) my snowboard get-up is brown-cream-pink......

** Bold= probably most affordable and easiest to get =)

hello

2007-11-19T18:25:00.001-10:00

haven't been on here for a while.

since i dont talk to many people during the week, I think I'll start writing in here again.

does anyone still read this?????????

if so, i'll be back. haha. im breaking out with pimples. hasnt happened in a long time, gross.

time's up.....

2007-09-10T19:57:00.000-10:00

I've been dreading the day I would have to say goodbye to her. It always seemed so far away, but now that it's closer than ever...it's so sad! I've never cherished moments more with her. Everytime she talks, I can see the sadness in her eyes that she is leaving...then I stop myself from crying because I know it's probably the best thing for her. Everybody here at home has their own life, sometimes too busy for our own good. I just can't imagine coming home to an empty kitchen...no tfc playing 24/7, no1 to force me to drive them around, no1 to talk to when no1 else is home..and I know she's not dying or anything, but I'm seriously going to misss her sooooo much. I have never seen anybody show as much love and kindness as she has shown to all of us. K, i'm gonna go to sleep now. I'm making myself saaaad:(!!!!!!!

the life of a nurse

2007-08-23T15:43:00.000-10:00

Hey everyone, haven't really talked to anyone except for probably Jamie. Haha, but I've jusst been working!! what's new??

WORK: I am now a functioning RN..by myself, making my own clinical decisions! I have to say that everyday I learn more & more, but I definitely see myself in a much "bigger" place I guess. Scripps is great starter I would have to say. Working with the very underprivileged of our community reminds me to be humble everyday. The homeless/aliens/crazy people/spanish speaking only/regular people (haha) makes every case a little different & complicated but I guess I like it. I can almost speak fluent spanish, hah. Anyways, back to my point...I eventually see myself at a bigger hospital, doing something craazy like doing everything i can to save the life of a dying person(of course with experience), and 12 hour shifts! haha. These 8hours are killin me. I practically live at the hospital, I am more alive there than when I get home. When I go out, its mostly with coworkers...The upside is that I get to make wonderfulllllll relationships with my patients cuz I see their asses everyday!! haha. It feels good. After having these 5 particular patients all week, today I discharged 2 of them...& felt sad that they were leaving!!! & then I had another one real close to dying of metastatic cancer-- I sat with her during lunch today and fed her popsicles.......aww..I'm gonna miss her too. She's going to hospice tomorrow. Soo even if I'm there 24/7, I guess I dont mind for now. The weekends dont seem that fun anymore anyways!!! haha. first REAL RN paycheck tomorrow, exciiited!

SOCIAL LIFE: not applicable. haha, jk. I've been going out with my coworkers a lot...having little get togethers, a pool party, and eating out/drinking. Other than that, I chill with my sisters at night. Been going out a lot with Marty & Sandy & that posse...+ random chillin with Philbert..then our random happy hours haha.

SCHOOL: not applicable, though I wish it were! I'm really gonna missss school :( probably the one thing in life I was good at haha.

LOVE: Seems like everyone is in loove or something. As far as my "love" affair with mr.808 goes.... ummmmm....its alive but I guess I dont really believe if that makes any sense. I guess its bad that I still talk to him, yet the whole time doubt in my mind that it will reaally work out. If circumstances were different (ie he lived here!) then I think of course it would be soo different, but just the fact he literally lives an ocean away...that it would very well cost me 1000buckss+ just to see him...that we DONT have the same phone company so I cant mobile2mobile with him, but use my anytime minutes....that i use all my texts on him...that we live in different TiME zones...that I work in the day & he works at night..& i could EASILY get away with cheating on him (haha had to throw that one in lol)............I guess all that makes a difference. a HUUUGE difference actually! He has a verrry charming personality & we had grrrrrrreat chemistry at hawaii...but sometimes I think I should have left it at hawaii. Cuz now I'm getting called 'baby' by someone I cant see but only talk to, getting Looove CDs in the mail, & being asked to falll asleep on the phone (@ these times Im like omg, my minutes!! hahaha) then secretly 'accidently' hanging up on him when he dozes off. but I DOOO LIIKE HIM!! dont get me wrong, but given the situation... the cons>pros. But whatever happens, happens....if anything I got a gooood friend in hawaii to show us around if we ever go! haha...but for now a pretend boyfriend. muahaha.

FITNESS: soooooo NOT APPLICABLE!!!!!!!! changing that NEXT week. i'm getting hideous under those scrubs, hahahaa.

so that's life for me. until neexxxxxt time!!

welcome to the real world

2007-07-31T20:38:00.000-10:00

Since I have started work, I find myself asking myself..so this is it huh? This is what I graduated for. Working everyday, wasting my youth being a grown up haha. I guess it wouldnt be such a shock to me if I wasn't just having the freakin time of my life before work. But I guess I wouldnt do it any other way. I went to NY, partied HAAAARD in SD for a month, and topped it off with trip to paradise. Yup, that's why I think work is so miserable right now. I mean, the job is fine..its just the FULLtime that gets to me. But anyways, I know I'll get used to it..or maybe appreciate it more once I get my first paycheck,hehe.

Anyways, do you guys still read the blogs or am I just talking to myself? whatever. Umm, I'm still in love! hahaha. As a matter of fact, he may likely be coming here if I have this certain weekend off! I just think its craazy! Oceaanns apaart, daay after daaay. haha, jk.

Ok time for Sudoku before bed. it's soo addicting!!

<3alooooooooooohaaa.

2007-07-26T07:05:00.000-10:00

if NY was awesome, hawaii was just as awesome, if not awesome-errrrrrrr=)

These are some of the things I did:
-drink & swim at the hotel pool the night of arrival/plan our trip
-1.5 mile hike to Manoa waterfall (beautiful 600 ft waterfalll)
-Kailua beach (white sandy beach)
-hanging out at Waikiki
-walmart like everyday
-Aloooha stadium
-party @ dnbs/pipeline/venus/zanzabar
-Hawaiian waters-water park
-Catamaran dinner cruise
-Germaines luau
-Dole plantation
-Dinner at Dukes
-North Shore
-drove around the island

So yeah, pretty much done almoost everything to do on that island. I reallly think we should all go together..maybe when everyone graduates?? it's sooo funn!

Um, the last thing I have to add about the island is that I met my future husband and we fell in love. Hahaha. If you havent seen my impression of us saying goodbye, you must!!! haha. Anyways I probably met him the 2nd night of our trip and he basically became our fourth roommate. He slept over like almost every night and took us out at night. Me likee likeee him..maybe part of it is cuz I know it can't be that serious with a whole ocean literally between us. We still keep in touch. I actually talk to him a looot..and sometimes I think he's seriously falling in love!! haha, I know I throw around the word "LOVE" too lightly, I just think it's funnier like that. But he always talks about how I should travel nurse there and be with him, and have his babies, and be his wife. Then, I laugh and he says in baby voice "why you laughing? i'm serious!" hahaha, yeaah. I fell in love in Hawaii! haha.

Lastly, reality here at home sucks. I start work this saturday. I had a meeting with my manager yesterday and he's starting me on a full patient load (5 patients) on my first day!! Usually, they start with three and add one patient on for every week of orientation until they are good at 5. ANNNND, not only do I start at 5..but I only get 9 days with a preceptor before they let me nurse on my own!! To me, that's scaaary and not enough time. But my manager told me to stop doubting myself and MAN Up!! So, I'm going to do it but if things aren't going smoothly I'm gonna say something.

I dont know why everytime I go to Hawaii, I gain weight. But I have gained a solid 3 lbs..haven't been to the gym in weeks, yet it doesnt sound appealing to me at ALL! I guess once I start getting into the routine of things again...but for now, Im still stuck in hawaii. hahaha. aloha!

--the NCLEX-RN--

2007-07-09T10:52:00.000-10:00

It had to be the most nerve-wrecking thing in my life. Not the test itself, just WAITING and PREPARING to take it. The feelings of pressure, anxiety, and...DOOOM! hahaha..

They say don't study the day before you take the test. So I woke up extra early (to make it in bed early) & went to church & PRAYED!!!! Afterwards, I was pretty bored. I sat in my room & realized that I was starting to freeak myself out..I was having resting tachycardia. Haha, a.k.a. very fast heartbeat at rest. So I decided to join my older sister at a pool party. It was actually the perfect thing to do to get my mind off of things. I sat in the pool, closing my eyes, imagining I was at hawaii =) I also had a couple shots and beers (like 2 each) in which I then achieved a state of relaxation. When the sun was setting I headed home to try to make it to Jeremy's grad dinner, but I was too lazy. I was getting sleepy so I popped in "how to lose a guy in 10 days"...movie ended, still wide awake. 1100pm: talked on the phone to marty for 1.5hrs, stillll not sleepy. 1215: go online, stilll not sleepy. I hate that!!! Finally around 215, I dozed off to the sounds of my ipod.

Woke up, drank a red bull & headed there listening to "Cherry Bomb" (my happy song!) on the way up. Went pee, signed in, went pee again in a matter of 10 minutes. HAHA. the other fob nurses taking the test made fun of me. Anyways, I took the test & I remembered to breathe...and it was alll goood. I stopped at the 75 questions, so I'll be checking the website frequently!! Hopefully I hear news before I head to Hawaii!

About Hawaii, I'm freakin excited about that. You have NOOOOO idea!!!!

"Pray not for a lighter load, but for stronger shoulders."

2007-07-05T22:38:00.000-10:00

~St. Augustine of Hippo

I liiiiiiiiiiiike that quote!!!!

Anyways. 138am.
WIDE awake. 3 more days.

I AM SO EXCITED TO LAY ON THE SHORES OF HAWAII...drrrrrunk! or just freakin RELAXED!!!
er..if only i lost weight!

some things will never change...that's just the waaaaaaaaaaay it is. Do you guys think change is good or bad????!!!

Oh, I've been listening to Bob Marley jams a lot lately--me likes. & "ay-bay-bay" is a ghetto ass song. Kinda wish I was at Vegas right now. Random ass blog...Oh well, goood night!!

2 a.m.

2007-07-02T23:06:00.000-10:00

I told myself I'd sleep earlier.

Summer is passing me by...and me and Ruth are stuck at the library all the time!! It's consuming you know..studying for these damn boards. It's like the day passes and you've done nothing but sit at a computer and do practice questions all day. I know this is all I talk about in my blog (haha)...I guess right now it's just for sanity's sake. It's really all that I think about--er, all that I CAN think about. There is nothing I think about more. I even dream about it for cryin out loud. Haha, and I guess I just reallly want it to be over with..so I can freakin move on. You have nooo idea what is on my TO DO list once I get this out the way.

HAWAII comin!! Didnt reach my goal weight..haha, who was I kidding. DelMarFair didnt help either. I guess its cuz I'd rather be smart and pass...and just suffer being fat at Hawaii. haha.

Anyways...that's my daily dose of complaining right there. Sorry to bore ya with my exciting life!! I promise when I pass, this thing will be POPPPPPIN! (yea right I'll just be working =T)

Until my next moment of insanity =)

tick tock..tick tock.

2007-06-25T19:04:00.000-10:00

Time keeeeps ticking!!

So....TWO WEEKS left until I take my boards. I didnt realize until recently..how little time that is! Nerve-wrecking when I think about it, but I'm just gonna take it with confidence & optimism. It's just a test of nerves..pressure...and oh yea, I guesss knowledge too. A couple of our classmates already have their very own license numbers! And while I am oh so jealous of them..I definitely can use these next two weeks to sharpen up!! I'm a little rusty when it comes to certain things--Pharmacology..Endocrine system..Labs/F&E to name a few. Sucks too that the weather has been nothing but lovely & I havent enjoyed it!

Toooooooo many distractions. Myspace. Gym. Planning hawaii trip. PUPPY!. Internet. Text messages. DelMarFair! marty. hunger. weekends! ...Jack. JK. hahaha.

Can't wait til this over...then I'm done with studying for a whiiile. Oh yea, except after this I would like to know a little less about nursing and soo much more about LIFE!! ...I'm clueless.

SUMMERTIME=)

2007-05-30T09:24:00.000-10:00

Welcome!

It's been awhile. The highlights of the past weeks are:

*Nursing class party @ Mission Beach
*GRADUATION DAY!!
*celebrations
*NY!!!
*Baby Ethan!!

Seriously, life has been soo good. I wake up every morning with no responsibility. Starting tomorrow, I will attempt to study at least a body system a day in order to prep for the boards which I plan on taking early July. Ahhh.....!

NYC was theeee BESSSSSSSST! I didn't wanna go home and I have to say that now I know what it means when they say I<3NY. cuz I do! No drama, just good times. I had soo much fun. I cant wait to go to more places!

My sisters and I are starting to book things for a 10-day trip to Hawaii! We're trying to do an Island hopping thing but I think it will be too expensive. I'm not working till July so I'm relying on Bank of Mom (for the first time in 6 years!) for the next couple of weeks. I'll also borrow money from her for the trip. But, it's okay, the $$ will come rollin in soon enough...if i pass the boards!! :X

Baby Ethan is soo cuuute...sooo tiiny..and soo cuute! I'll be visiting often Grace =)

And lastly, I have gained 5 pounds since graduation season. Can you say EWWWWW!!!!!!!! I haven't been to the gym since before finals. So....yeah. gross. I'm going to the gym now. bye.

COMING CLOSE!!

2007-05-10T20:07:00.000-10:00

HI!! Long time, nothing. I guess that goes for everyone. We can't abandon these blogs cuz sometimes that's the only way I know what's up. Soo, Jamie..what happened to your blog???

Anyways, I guess for me..you can say life has been somewhat busy? I've been tying up the ends of this semesters work, and now I just have one more final left!! It sucks that now has to be the time for lovely weather cuz I'm stuck indoors studying!! ;( I'm pretty much over having to get A's on my exam, cuz 1) I don't think it even matters anymore 2) I'm graduating!!!!!! But there's still a little left in me that will try to put in the effort. GRADUATION IS COMING SOO CLOSE!! yay! Stock up on your red bulls..MAY18 will be a loooong day!

So in preparation for the big day, I need to: (Call me if you'd like to join)
-go shopping and find a dress!
-get my nails done
-dye my roots out
-Decorate my cap
-MORE cap&gown pics
-Make lunch reservations
-get a table @ Visions?? (yes/no/maybeso?)
-buy luggage??

Yeah, I forget sometimes that I'm going to NY shortly after. I don't know if that's a good thing. Usually, I am soo hyped before trips! I guess its cuz I don't know whats going on!! (&&icantgotoNiagaraFalls, haha) I may tentatively be having a grad party June2, but it's still a maybe so I'll let you guys know.

Soo, Grace---we're all patiently waiting. You probably will make it to may15 after all???! You know, until the baby shower, I didn't realize how big of a deal it really was. Sounds weird..but before it was more like "oh my friend is Pregnant"..but now that it's closer..it's more like "oh, my friend is going to have her baby anytime now" A BABY?? A REEEEEEEAL BABY!!?!!? Wow. Bringing life to the world, how exciiiiiiiting!!!!!!!! OUR FRIEND IS HAVING A BABY!!! hahaaa.

Other than that. BobbyV's new CD is pretty HOT! HAHA, RANDOM!! Neyo's is okay..I liked his first one better. Yea, been wasting my money as you can seeee...I guess I'll go to work tomorrow then. Tomorrow, I shall rest my legacy as a super Student Nurse Extern hahaa....after tomorrow, I won't be back at work until......mid-July as an RN!! (I better find me a sugar daddy until then! haha)

Lastly, I must say: Thank you God for all your wonderful blessings in our lives. AMEN! =)

EVERY WOMAN

2007-04-25T17:16:00.000-10:00

i liked this (myspace action), thought I'd share...

A WOMAN SHOULD HAVE:
One old love she can imagine going back to
And one who reminds her how far she has come.

A WOMAN SHOULD HAVE:
Enough money within her control to move out,
And rent a place of her own even if she never wants to or needs to.

A WOMAN SHOULD HAVE:
Something perfect to wear if the employer
Or date of her dreams wants to see her in an hour.

A WOMAN SHOULD HAVE:
A youth she's content to leave behind.

A WOMAN SHOULD HAVE:
A past juicy enough that she's looking forward to retelling it in her old age.

A WOMAN SHOULD HAVE:
A set of screwdrivers, a cordless drill, and a black lace bra.

A WOMAN SHOULD HAVE:
One friend who always makes her laugh,
And one who lets her cry.

A WOMAN SHOULD HAVE:
A good piece of furniture not previously owned by anyone else in her family.

A WOMAN SHOULD HAVE:
Eight matching plates, wine glasses with stems,
And a recipe for a meal that will make her guests feel honored.

A WOMAN SHOULD HAVE:
A feeling of control over her destiny.

EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW:
How to fall in love without losing herself.

EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW:
How to quit a job,
Break up with a lover,
And confront a friend without ruining the friendship.

EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW:
When to try harder
And when to walk away.

EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW:
That she can't change the length of her calves,
The width of her hips,
Or the nature of her parents.

EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW:
That her childhood may not have been perfect
But its over.

EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW:
What she would and wouldn't do for love or more

EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW:
How to live alone
Even if she doesn't like it

EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW:
Whom she can trust,
Whom she can't,
And why she shouldn't take it personally.

EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW:
Where to go
Be it to her best friend's kitchen table,
Or a charming inn in the woods
When her soul needs soothing.

EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW:
What she can and can't accomplish in a day.
A month,
And a year.

--MAYA ANGELOU

BEFORE BED

2007-04-23T21:01:00.000-10:00

Thought I'd log in to say hello before I go to sleep, heh.

Um, wow. I have nothing to talk about..lovely! I guess my days have been pretty boring for the most part. So boring that I actually just go workout for hours cuz I have nothing better to do. I actually have a couple of papers this week to work on, but after that..NOTHIN! Just studying for finals.

Time flies. May is next week, and a busy month it will be indeed! A busy, festive month! As much as I'm not ready for it..life is about to change dramatically! Not even just for me...but professions are starting, babies are coming, school is ending, etc. I try to remind myself so that when all this change happens, I'll be ready for it. I suppose it's a good change though..although, I think growing up sucks :( !!

MAY ITINERARY
*5/5 Grace's Baby Shower
*5/14 Last FINAL
*5/15 Baby ETHAN =D
*5/18 GRADUATION DAY =D
*5/19 Camels grad/ Grad parties galore
*5/20 Camels grad party
*5/22-28 NYC!!
*5/31 Kaplan Review/Study for Boards
*take my boards and work!

AH! how craaazy. K i better sleep. Got a suuuper long day tomorrow. I'll probably be back on this sucker soon.

FAMILY<3

2007-04-15T18:54:00.000-10:00

So this whole weekend, my family from VA has been in town & it has been suuper fun. I wish I could always have a lot of family around. That is why me and my sisters all promised each other to have lots and lots of babies so we can have big, fun family partieees. Weee!

We took my 18yo cousin to get her belly button pierced. In a matter of 2 days we somehow corrupted her just a little. In PI its ok for girls not to shave their legs, but now she wants to shave, she got a piercing, she loves mexican food and candy, and she thinks its even cooler to drink. HAHA. Outta boredom, got some new ear piercings..kinda regretting the cartilage one because I have to be careful when I brush my hair..but oh wells...

Last night went out spontaneously with Ruth and Dianne. It was random, but I had a good buzz. We went to Yardhouse...Local..Visions--Downtown was kinda dead though! DAPA!, hahaa (sorry ruth) Anyways I missed going out...haha, so cool.

Today went to Carlsbad Flower Field--soo pretty. And Seaport. San Diego is soo beeauutifull!!!

Blah, time for clinical tomorrow. Gonna rent some movies, byebye!

JUST WONDERING...

2007-04-12T20:06:00.000-10:00

What do you guys do on the weekdays??

I hope over summer I see you guys more than the weekends. lol. I was just thinking about how everyone is sooo busy. Do you think when we start working it will be even more crazy?

Today I ate at CPK in eastlake. If you're ever there...Carne Asada pizza is the bomb-dot-com!!!!

Ok guess I'm going to work tomorrow! Good night........

FINAL STRETCH

2007-04-10T20:02:00.000-10:00

I guess I've noticed about myself that for the past week I haven't really been in the best of moods. Conclusion: SCHOOL and SLEEP, or lack thereof. It has been an overwhelming amount of school work and studying on top of Lynn's debut, but after tomorrow I hope I can finally resume a regular schedule!! I have been on running on coffee every morning, no naps in the day, and waking up early..& I guess it just got me!! So sorry if I've been not so pleasant to talk to, heheeeee. (Imagine what my sisters put up with)

Today had my last midterm everr. Got a 90, surprisingly--so I'm happy about that. Got a couple clinicals left and then it's OVAAA. This is the final stretch. Finally got to go to gradFest too..it was okay. What I didn't get to do was go to the gym. It's been tooooooo long.....

Today when I got home I actually had time to just chill and not feel like I had something to do. Jus hung out all day so that was fun. BUT i havent been able to sleep yet!! So I guess I'm gonna call it an early night for me.

Let's plan Grace's baby shower soon! I finally have some free time in my schedule "weekend friends." (lol, jamie...) bye.

LAME!

2007-03-30T22:25:00.000-10:00

Haha about 130am, I can't sleep.

What I can't get over right now is how I ended up staying home on the last friday night of spring break?!! Haha, man it's crazy and I'm feeling muchos lame-os right now. Waaa.

So spring break huh? This might be one of the things I'll regret later in life, lol. Spending my last spring break ever WORKING, going to CLINICAL, and pretty much sleeping early every night to wake up every morning by at least 6am! Yeeeah, woooO! haha. THENNNN on the weekend when I can sleep in, I don't do anything! WOOOOOOO! hahaa. I'm soo doing something tomorrow night btw...even if I'm alone. ha ha haa.

Aside from that dose of humor, dnbs was cool even if that place is boring! (sorry Grace!) But you know what was funner?? PB IN THE DAAAAAAAYTIME!! "It's really fun guys" Haha, me and Ruth yet again drinking/eating/shopping at Pb..it would be soo much funner if you allll went. I had a good amount of alcohol in my system= suuper fun shopping. Then grrreat nap when I came home. Foreals, we are SOO doing that MANY times this summer......

anyways, time to sleep. Are we really going to messsico tomorrow???

SPRRRING BREAK:)

2007-03-23T11:13:00.000-10:00

After a lot of boredom, I forgot I had a blog to keep myself entertained!

Anyways, it's a lovely friday afternoon, I just got paid, so I am about to go for a little stroll thru the mall =) I haven't really bought anything for myself these past few weeks because my last paycheck was zero dollars! So today, maybe I'll buy a shirt..or two.

It is officially spring break! But even though it's break and all, I do plan on working at least 40 hours because afterwards I will be too busy the last six weeks of school. SIX??!!! Wow, six. I always thought the time would never come, and now that it is....it's just soo..scary!! I finally have to really be grown up! Grades won't mean anything, which is crazy cuz I feel like I've lived only to get grades! All I want to be is a good nurse though, so I hope I will be.

Other than working, I have a paper, research critique, clinical worksheet, journal and project to work on. FUNNN. I do want to squeeze in time to live a little. How bout going out of town for a little bit (even to just eat and walk around), or John Legend concert ($35)--Let me know if you're interested! Speaking of LIVING, I have realized this last year that I haven't really been living, living. I have been living to make deadlines, studying for tests, sleeping to wake up for work--routine stuff. Not really enjoying the finer things in life. So I am making it a goal to do things I wanna do after I graduate. For example, go on road trips, fly a kite, travel, lay on the beach, etc. Haha, yup the stuff we kinda used to do when we were young and aliiive!

Reflecting a little on this entry, I guess I'm just scared to grow up. (grace, you must have something to say, haha). After school, you're supposed to find your soul mate in life. In my case, where the fck is he?!! Then have babies and just groow old..and older....and olderrrrrrrr. EW! hahahaa. I have problems.

Soo yea call me if you guys wanna chill. I feel like I see/talk/hang out with only that one person during the weekdays. NOT healthy, well at least not for me. I like to be around more than one person sometimes. I'll just be working if not. I'm trying to save moneys because I am most likely going on a trip to NYC the week after I graduate. It's cheap and my dad's paying for it as a grad present =) The plan is to see all the places I'd love to see, so it's random but I'm pretty excited! (Im gonna be aliiive!! hahaa) Then in July will be the much anticipated Hawaii trip with my family. And me & daze were talking about a Huuuge all-girl Vegas trip in August where we would rent a giant suite and fuckin party! Sounds FUNNN huh?!!

Anyways, that's all. and Yes, I realize I am going through some end-of-college-life-crisis. Haha, buut "fuuuuuck it"...we're only young once. See you guys out tonight if you guys go!

WHYYYY!?!!!

2007-03-12T18:49:00.000-10:00

WHYY must I be so damn careless? & because of my carelessness...I always spend my money on things I don't really need! I have been noticing that about myself lately and its kinda annoying! haha. Let's seeeeeeeeeee:

-I buy a camera & I dont use it AT ALL..hell, I don't even know where that thing is. (ps. I will be looking for that after I blog)
-I buy purses and dont really go out..so they are lost somewhere in my closet.
-I crash a car and total it...& it's not even mine.
-I buy Gucci sunglasses and sit on them & they cracked :(
-I've been thru three silver watches & millions of earrings...and dont have much to show for.
-I buy a phone and lose it. Then when I get an old phone, I'm not happy and spend more money to get the same phone I used to have (which I'll probably lose again!)

Yeah, it's not much, but it is! Things add up...talk about getting my Dad's spending habits! Thank God I'm graduating..I'm starting not to be able to afford myself!!! I think I need a boyfriend for this problem, hehe jk. I guess it's just time to break the bad habit......

REAL FRIENDS/ FAKE FRIENDS

2007-03-09T15:16:00.000-10:00

thought it was funny:

FAKE FRiENDS: Never ask for food.
REAl FRiENDS: are the reason you have no food.

FAKE FRiENDS: Call your parents Mr/Mrs
REAl FRiENDS: Call your parents DAD/MOM

FAKE FRiENDS: bail you out of jail and tell you what you did was wrong.
REAl FRiENDS: Would sit next to you sayin "Damn ... we fucked up ... but that shit was fun!"

FAKE FRiENDS: never seen you cry.
REAl FRiENDS: cry with you

FAKE FRiENDS: Borrow your stuff for a few days then give it back.
REAl FRiENDS: keep your shit so long they forget its yours.

FAKE FRiENDS: know a few things about you.
REAl FRiENDS: Could write a book about you with direct quotes from you.

FAKE FRiENDS: Will leave you behind if that is what the crowd is doing.
REAl FRiENDS: Will kick the whole crowds ass that left you.

FAKE FRiENDS: Would knock on your front door.
REAl FRiENDS: Walk right in and say "I'M HOME!"

FAKE FRiENDS: Are for awhile.
REAl FRiENDS: Are for life.

FAKE FRiENDS: Will take your drink away when they think you've had enough.
REAl FRiENDS: Will look at you stumbling all over the place and say "Bitch drink the rest of that you know we don't waste shit."

THURSDAY

2007-03-08T20:06:00.000-10:00

Wow, home and sober on a thursday night AND going to work tomorrow morning! Different!, but a good change. Aside from American Idol, my time at home has been a real bore. Grey's sadly re-ran their show again, what's up with that?? Aside from that, being at home has been stressing me out/making me mad. I know much may be due to the upcoming appearance of my monthly friend, but really....really..I've had so many times where I just felt like screaming in my pillow. With Lynn's car officially totaled, we have five drivers and four cars..so we have been alternating cars and for some reason...MY car is the one always in use and nobody pays for the gas except me! This has been one of the major stressors for me at home. Can you imagine having plans and not carrying through because everyones always driving your car...orrr...just straight up being stuck at home (can't go to the gym, walmart, etc) cuz someone needs your car and they keep telling you "well you have to make sacrifices sometimes."Orr just even planning your next day around whose gonna need your car when. GAaaaahh, it drives me crazy. I mean--I know I totaled one of the cars, but hey--so did my other two sisters..I just topped it off! haha. Errr, aside from that..hopefully my sister will be purchasing her AcuraTL this Sunday to take away this problem...

Anyways, things haven't really been the greatest--well nothing to be all excited to blog about. It's been boring..I lost my phone and phone numbers (my social life)...I hate my old hand-me-down phone. My dogs have been barking out my window nonstop for the past nights interupting my sleep...Uhh, all Ive been doing is school work..had a midterm today which marks my first nursing test i DIDNT study for...& i dont know. haha.

Dang, hopefully next entry will be a little brighter. I need some you know what...you know what!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! If you dont know, ask. hahah.

$$$$$$$$

2007-03-02T10:10:00.000-10:00

Ohhh man, yet ANOTHER friday where I have failed to go to work. I have not worked for sooo long...and yet I spend money like i work Full-time. I think that the problem roots from riding to school with marty on Thursdays. After class, we always go somewhere and end up someway, somehow drinking to a point where it is no longer a question if we are going to work or not! Every thursday! and Fridays are the only days I really have time to work.

Anywaays, today is Martys 24th birthday. I got him a pair of Prada sunglasses...........but he WILL pay me back! Do you guys wanna go to altitude with me...please? But anyways, that's mah buddyyyy.

At least Im sticking to one of my new yrs resolutions which was to do well in school. i got a 98 on my test, wooohoooo. As for the rest, I have failed. Soo I'll call ya'll up later. I got a big ass bottle of captain morgan that was on sale at the NEX for 15.99....I might need some help drinking it, har har har.

p.s. Lotto jackpot: 267 million........wow.

OVER IT..

2007-02-25T15:04:00.000-10:00

As much as I am scared to graduate and don't want to (yup!), it is times like this when I just wish school was done with!! My brain is fried...after three years of straight nursing..I am tired. I am at the Rbr in desperate need of motivation! I'm tired of waking up in panic because I have to study haha..I'm tired of memorizing..I'm tired of dreaming about nursing concepts....I'm tired of my life revolving around exams & projects..but I love love learning (& i think i love nursing too)!!--just without the added stress of exams/papers/clinicals/busy work. Hmph.

Anyways, I had fun at your party Jamie. Was surprisingly drunk, hah. Great mixture of rum/Vodka/Beer...ehh, yum. good times=)

&I NEEEED TO GO TO THE GYM!! its been 2wks & havent been cuz of no time. I am starting to get way disgusted by the extra jiggle I am now noticing, ew.

Back to studying........school sucks. Senioritis? I think so.

PEOPLE PLEASER

2007-02-24T13:31:00.000-10:00

I have learned that you can't always please everybody. & well, to some extent I always knew that but still have always tried to do it. Anyways I come into a recent situation where I didn't please someone, haha, and it bothered me. I didn't do anything wrong really, she just totally misunderstood me. Soo, I tried to call her to clarify things so she knew what was up... but she cancelled my call!! ::insert SHOCKED face here!:: hahaa. Who is she? Ehh, a friend..maybe even an acquaintance. When do I see her? not a lot. Why do I care? I dont know....why do I!?! hahaha.

So advice of the day. You can try your best to make everyone happy, but sometimes you can't do it...and that shouldn't bother you.

Ok, I feel better--I'm over it!! Time to study. See you guys tonight!

ASH WEDNESDAY

2007-02-21T10:34:00.000-10:00

After much hesitance and contemplation, I have decided to give up WHISKEY for lent. What female in this world besides me does that??? First, I was only going to give up Crown, but that would be cheating cuz I would drink Jack all the time. Soo, there you go..I have given up the only two drinks that reallyhave the capability of getting me drunk. Aw, how sad...whats harder..this? or myspace like last year, hehehe. I also have another personal one, but I won't say because I am starting to get paranoid that more people read this blog than i think haha. BTW, if any of you guys go to Ash Wednesday mass..can you take me?!! I need a ride!

Today is such a NICE day...and I'm sad because I am stuck at home. I have accomplished two hours of studying and I think I am now an expert on Critical Pulmonary Dysfunction....or am i?! I am starting to feel a little overwhelmed with my school load right now. It's hard for me to get the right balance with a work and social life. Hmm, I am strugggling to work 1 day a week..and I am trying everything I can so I can go out Saturday night without feeling stressed out. Haha, I hope I can handle it.

Since the accident, things have gotten much better. I think I actually talk to my parents more, haha. My sistas have been totally understanding about the car situation because we are now short cars cuz my Dad is back in Lb with the truck. Buut one thing is starting to worry me. Being the person who never really has headaches....I would say I am getting a little concerned that since the accident, I have been getting constant headaches daily that sometimes is not relieved by Tylenol/Aspirin/Ibuprofen. I've tried all three! Soo I'm really hoping it may be due to lack of sleep..not any kind of head trauma! Ohh man.

I can't get over how nice it is outside. Back to studying............................

TEMPLATES

2007-02-20T23:55:00.000-10:00

i keep changing them cuz I dont like blogging when its ugly..

anyways I think I like this one...testing testing 123...

yea i like it. more blogging to come! hahahaaa

ohhhh man i should soo be studying or better yet SLEEEEPING!!!!

ps i have nothing to do tomorrow cuz I have no car, boo.

ICEBOX

2007-02-19T15:58:00.000-10:00

not to be so coldhearted, but uhhh...CC (you figure) is insanely annoying.

Advice of the day: Never give your phone number out of pity.

Errrrrrrrrrrrrr. haha, School sucks.

YOU LIVE & YOU LEARN

2007-02-16T10:04:00.000-10:00

As the whole world apparently seems to know, I put everything I'm worth on the line monday night because of a stupid decision. The whole idea of it still haunts me, although I'd like to think I'm moving forward from it. A certain friend of mine claims to take 60% responsibility from that night, but I can account for my own actions. & definitely, from that night, I will never drive drunk again...& neither will you guys! =P

It's kind of one of those things that you kinda never think will happen to you. You could talk about how bad it would be if it did, but never REAALY think about it until it almost happens to you. When I got in the accident, I swear to you NOTHING else mattered to me. Not the pain, the damage, the other person...just how I was definitely going to get a dui that night. Three cops came and listened to my sob story..and (with God watching me!) they let me go..and I walked away with a life lesson learned.

Afterwards, I was soo depressed...and ashamed to walk into my house. In a mild way, I still am but I'm moving forward (I like to think I have great coping skills, haha). The biggest hurt for me was disappointing my parents. They weren't mad, just disappointed...and you could see it in their face, hear it in their voice--- and to me, that's worse than them yelling in my face! We are talking though, it's put in the past, & it's actually my Dad's 56th birthday today sooo....all he asked for was "peace of mind" in his words exactly...hmmm...i wonder why. heh.

& with all this going on...School has definitely been picking up. It doesn't help that my minds been up in the clouds lately. I only have one day a week to work (which is Fridays), but I couldn't today because last night I got the stomach bug from eating at Seau's (Clam Linguini & Sushi) soo I was throwing up all night. I'm kinda low on funds...so I'm actually thinking about working Saturday. I havent worked for almost 2 wks, kinda stressful that money makes the world go round. I can't wait to make a steady paycheck.

What else. How was Valentines? I really could care less about it that day & it didn't cross my mind until I saw all the nurses wearing red...but mine ended up being reallly fuckin ODD. I would have to fill you guys in on that. All bitterness aside (single or taken), I still hate that holiday. Who made it up?!

And soo here I am at the end of the week. Thinking about how crazy it all has been. Thinking about how I never had a chance to just sit down and think. With the insane number of phonecalls I got after that accident, I guess I realized that a lot of people do care (haha). And the fact that I'm still alive, nobody's dead because of me, and I can still be a nurse when I graduate this May......well, geez...I know now more than ever that God is watching us...& I am fortunate & lucky to be sitting here and blogging on pretty Friday afternoon. Whew.

noo fair...

2007-02-06T10:11:00.000-10:00

hey, Tess got a new car! I would have to say now, that my car is the ugliest on the lot by far. Doesn't help that Tess' new car is white too...now mine looks yellow :( haha

btw, Fun weekend guys=)

back to Reality. I am soo behind on readings..assignments..lectures...school in general I think mostly because clinicals havent started, soo it was never official to me. Well, got my first one tomorrow in the SICU & wow, I am exciiited but NOT prepared at all. So today, will be devoted to just that--reading everything I possibly can so I don't look like a total idiot tomorrow. &maybe a trip to Walmart & the gym?! hmmmmmm............

if you're still bored right now...go find something to do for Spring break!! Ensenadaa? hahahaa...

this circular motion is all we do.

surprise...surprise

2007-01-29T18:10:00.000-10:00

Inang slipped. Today she told me my dad was coming home..possibly in the next two days. They have been keeping it a secret from us for God knows why...& I have quite mixed emotions.

I was sooo excited. I really honestly, and truly miss my Dad. Then, I realized how different it would be. Me and my sisters have gone crazy without a paternal figure to keep us in check. I'm talkin about belligerent drinkups at the house, boys sleeping over, not sleeping at home, etc. & so in many ways it's a good thing. I have to behave now ;) harhar. but Tell me why am I kind of dreading it?!! Lol, I'm dreading having to be behaved. wtF!?

It's also cuz before he was at home only on weekends, but now since his house is rented out, I'm guessing he's gonna be around the house for a while. Weeird. I haven't realized how much I was used to him not being around. Oh well, I'm glad. My mom's gonna be soooo much happier, our family will be in better shape, and the house and cars won't keep crumbling apart, heh.

If I sounded like I didn't want him here, it's not that at all...it's just weeird! I have no idea why I am so weirded out. Probably because this is all so imminent and unexpected. but yah, I love my dad! its just weird!! hahaha.

k, thought I'd keep you guys updated. Very likely to see ya'll Wednesday =) Time to study for a little quiz that can make me or break me tomorrow morning. Wish me luck.

HOW TIMES HAVE CHANGED

2007-01-28T07:33:00.000-10:00

I'm woken up by dehydration, & I'm pretty bored...soo here I am!! Before I begin my story...I would like to say I changed my layout (obviously) & I am absolutely hating it but cant change it back to what it was cuz I forgot how. ok. haha.

Last night I had a verrry good time! I would have to say me & dianne make a FUN duo! Even if it's just us two all time, I think that's when we have the most fun cuz we just go uninhibited and i love itt. Last night would be the perfect example. "Nobody wants to go out again?! Oh well, who cares...let's just go anyways!" Me and Dianne were thinkin we're soo lame we don't have friends..so the plan of action was to get new phone numbers from guys and girls so we have weekend friends hahaa.

So we end up going to downtown to go to Visions, and get parking riiight across the street! When we got in, to our surprise was the "mafia" minus one bf in particular, whew! Funny because on our way to downtown we were discussing how we kinda missed going out with them...and just yesterday I was looking at pictures when we used to go out all time. So anyways, we actually hung out with them thru the night and had a good time & kinda felt like i missed them! hahaha--it was a reciprocal feeling btw!....In a strange and weird way, despite how 'bitchy' they can get, I just wish our friendships didn't have to change so much. I know life has definitely moved on and at times I could really care less if things were fixed or not, but if amends were made..everything would be sooo much more peachy. Haha, for me at least. So i put the 'sexy funeral' vegas pic..because how ironic..little did we know that was PQs funeral!!!!! cuz I cant really remember being 'normal' since then. LOL. jk jk jk.

So I was getting aside from the point. Well we went out with intentions of getting new friends... but I guess the old works out perfectly too. Yup.

BACK TO WORK

2007-01-22T18:37:00.000-10:00

After about almost three weeks of completely no work and being a bum...I finalllly went back! I need to get back to my routine of waking up at 6am, if not earlier, so that I could make it to either clinical/work/or class. Looks like once this semester starts rollin, I'm gonna be a busy person if I let myself (that is, if I'm not procrastinating!) I have printed probably 100+ pages from my printer right now for my class tomorrow so I'm thinking is there another alternative?!! Cuz this is a whoole lot of printing!

Been going to the gym, & I've seen this guy in the sauna (@Hst) like twice...and sometimes we talk. Well, I think I'm in <3333! Hahaha, jk. Just a gym crush. As for me and my other buddy (you know who), we're cool & I think I'm finally letting myself not care about it so much cuz I shouldn't care about it so much, ya know? But we're still close peoples (& I have been chillin with his friends more than mine, ahem! haha jk) because he's part of my whole social/work/school life..how did that happen?!!! Haha, jk it's cool..sometimes not. & that's that! ...story of my life...hahaha.

In other news, Grace's baby is a healthy baby! yayy, I'm excited for her and obbybob! I won bridal bazaar tickets on the radio the other day (Yah, weird huh?) & there are soo many people getting married this year!...maybe even one of the PQers, har har har. crrazy. We're old. Ok I am done. I have yet to begin studying EKGs and drug calculations, bye bye!

theeee END

2007-01-17T11:15:00.000-10:00

So it's the end of Winter break. One more semester, and we're DONE! Everytime I think about it I get nervous, sad, excited, anxious, happy, etc. I feel like I won't know what to do with myself. I do, however, have a pretty lengthy list of things I want to buy once I start working..but we shall not get into that.

The last few days of break have been RELAXING. I am going on more than a week of no work..WOW. It's nice but I couldn't do it forever. School's starting tomorrow, then I'll probably work once a week if I can.

Anywaaays. Yeah. I have nothing to talk about. haha. Laame. bye...this is boring!

LOL!

2007-01-04T14:41:00.000-10:00

Ohhh my gosh!

I was looking at my resolution list and let's just say I already broke more than half of them, 5 out of 7 to be exact! I would rather not discuss it though, it makes me sad. Hahaha.

Anyways, since we haven't been out..I have managed to finish a whole entire season of Nip Tuck which is (738 mins!) in less than two days!!! I have already began season II..Yes, it is so disturbingly good I'm addicted!! I have also worked 56 hours for my next paycheck (cha-ching!) and have gotten really close to my coworkers since I'm around them so much! haha. We have also put down our Christmas Village :( How SAAD. The holidays are over.......*tear, tear.

Soo tomorrow is CARLAS birthday!! Yayyy, for the old lady! hahah, jk. See you guys then? or maybe sooner!

HAPPY HOLIDAYS

2006-12-28T22:39:00.000-10:00

Wow, talk about time flying! I don't know about you guys, but I have pretty much been working up theee ass! It's fun though cuz all the externs are working, and it's just good times. Other than that, been spending a lot of time taking naps, going on myspace, talking on my phone, watching tv, and being bored. I love it and hate it at the same time. Oh did I mention how much FOOD i consumed. It's really sickening..makes me wanna throw up. haha.

So New Year huh? 2007. WOW. My Resolutions this year are to:

-Lose weight, if not, maintain my weight by using my gym membership more!
-Stop charging my on my credit card & hopefully pay them off when I graduate!
-No belligerent nights that I can't remember!
-Stop sleeping in & go out to be more pruductive & fun
-Seriously hands down be JUST FRIENDS w you know who
-No throwing up on purpose anymore (uhhhh hahaha)
-Get good grades in my last college semester.

I think these are verrry good resolutions for me. I'm kind of excited about it. 2007 will probably be a good year =) Where the party at tonight!?!

FREEEDOM

2006-12-15T06:51:00.000-10:00

Finished Finals!! Hellloooo SIXTH semester! that means we're graduating in NO time =) AHHH! Seriously makes me feel like peeing in my pants everytime I think about it. All I have ever known was school--studying and a part time job. Post graduation, life is gonna be about work! haha. After finals, had a grreat time at the beer garden. In all my college career, I've never drank after a final on campus...and I must say it was pretty fun. Will definitely be doing that next semester.

Been awake since 6am. I was soo tired last night at D&Bs, but I still got drunk while I was already hungover--awesome! =P I have been on a serious caffeine addiction for the past week, I'm gonna have to go cold turkey so my body can restore its normal functioning!

Anyways, enough blabbering. I know SOMEONE was waiting for this list....

--A jigsaw puzzle (A cute one please! & not too hard...I'm serious)
--I loove wallets (but please get an OK from grace before buying it, haha...I'm serious)
--Cute T-shirts (I would go with a medium)
--Can never go wrong with a hoodie!
--Cute/Warm PJs
--Those slipper/socks jamie posted on her blog
--AE underwear
--Flannel Sheet Set (match my room, full/quuen)

*I know this is really general. I'll get around to posting specific links after I go shopping today!!

BORED

2006-12-04T19:54:00.000-10:00

Even if I should at least get started on studying for finals, I'm not and I'm soo boored!

Today was yet another exhausting day w Ruth, but I took a nap and then woke up way too late. Now I'm bored. I should just go to partymartys house to kill time or something. Cool, I just bugged my sister and shes gonna go to walmart with mee =) It's 10pm.

Tomorrow will be my last undergraduate lecture of the fall semester, lol. I also have a dentist appt and Christmas party to attend to. I wanna cut my hair too, it's monstrous...at least to me...

and then Weds...dinner? Ok. time to go to the place where the prices are always rooollling back! i<3Walmart.

HUMOR

2006-12-02T22:12:00.000-10:00

Sometimes you gotta find the humor in things. How I've humored myself this weekend was sadly looking at my weekend itinerary. I wondered to myself many times this weekend: "wow, I'm pretty lame! " I can remember the weekends when I would leave the house at 11 to party, versus now coming home at 11 to call it a night! Yeah, that was a perfect example. Not to complain right now though, cuz I love it and I'd rather be warm at home right now then freezing my ass off trying to party. & I guess that's just growing up for ya. Sucks, haha.

Anyways, I was looking on myspace at how all the groups from high school are still really good friends. And with definitely no offense to you guys... or myself!, but I'm jealous! They have thanksgiving dinners together, hang out at each others houses, go shopping or whateverr....and they're all big happy groups! Then I look at ours...haha, and laugh because you would think after 10+ yrs of being friends, that all 8 of us would still be able to be good friends..but we're not..we're drama queens! Me & Philbert were saying maybe it's because we don't have guys in our group, so you put a bunch of girls together and there's bound to be drama! We're all split in half & mad at each other. So now there is less of us to hang out and for the most part, I kinda have nooo idea what anyone is doing throughout the week, haha. Sometimes makes me feel like I have no friends! But of course I understand we're all busy, but fckn imagine when we graduate w full time careers!! Anyways I just miss being a bigger group, but quality over quantity.. haha byaaaaaah!! I just got kinda sad about that over the weekend. Just last Christmas, we WERE one of those big, happy groups that I envy now. I guess we take those things for granted....

The end of the semester approaching quickly. It's December already! I seriously can't believe how FAST this year has went. It scaares me to think about graduating next year, it's less than 5 months away!! & that's it--blasted into the reeal world. Hmm, oh yeah I <3 the new real world cast. haha, ok..I'm looking at my bed and it looks mighty comfy. Goood night!

SINGLES NIGHT

2006-11-11T14:37:00.000-10:00

It was "Singles Night" at Decos last night. Haha, everyone had a little sticker which I thought was pretty gay! But anyways, I surprisingly had a good time last night! Things are somewhat normai with the other half, but of course never the same.

Me and Dianne had a ball approaching literally almost 20 guys asking them "Hey arent you my brothers friend?" which works like a charm! Talk about theeeee greatest pickup line! haha.

Snowjam this morning was freakin awesome. Carla woke my drunk ass up at 730, and picked me up at 0830. It started at 1000, and we were there for a good three hours...300 dollars later I have a new snowboarding outfit (jacket AND pants), and some snowboarding boots. Yeah, maybe I'm crazy but I looooove snowboarding! I plan on going plenty of times this season, poor knees! AND when I'm a nurse next year..I'll be buying myself a pretty snowboard! Woohoo..cant wait!

Anyways, um BYE!! haha

welcome to the good life =)

Hau'oli Makahiki Hou!

BIGGEST LOOOOOSER

Almost a Year later..

happy Sunday.

new year

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Adjusting..

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week ONE

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SUNSHINE

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New Moon!

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WHERE HAVE THE DAYS GONE?

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deeeeear santa,

hello

time's up.....

the life of a nurse

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"Pray not for a lighter load, but for stronger shoulders."

2 a.m.

tick tock..tick tock.

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FINAL STRETCH